A 45 Pointer

.Chapter 3- Why the Role Switch?

Sebastian

They've asked the other 3 to step out because they're happy with their careers, but as you can see, I wasn't. I was stuck in a joyless career. I was about 5 when I realized I was different from the other kids. Never knew why, I just was. And all of my childhood was spent on correcting that.

The dumbest thing is people thought I was different because I didn't want to get into a "stable" career path. I've always wanted to express myself through my work, I want to experience the glamor, and I want to work my way up the ladder. I want to experience every role I play, I want the audience to believe the embodiments are real. When people ask who I am, they should ask if I'm Tyler from Dropping Beats; believe me when I tell you they'll make a movie out of that. When I come to my parents about this, they say I have the ravings of all the failures in the world.

The only freedom I had for theater was in high school; it counted as a CAS project. Now, I say it counted as a project because I wrote the play, auditioned for it, ran the rehearsals, and went all out all by myself. Let me tell you, I forgot about everything else in brief moments, it was phenomenal.

I took the story from different experiences in my life, and books I read, and I am proud to say I predicted the course of events. Speaking of brief, I have plans I'm browsing and brainstorming.

You may think starting off in the industry is easy. If you have the looks and you can sweettalk, you'll already be rolling in offers. Well, let me tell you something, the movies get it completely wrong. I'm not saying I struggled as women normally do, selling their bodies for work, but I'm saying I can understand their pain.

Selling bodies. How is that not frowned upon in the industry?

Most adults my age think it's too late for change, but that's where they're wrong. And on top of that, my parents thought I couldn't pursue two career paths at once. Well, that's true in adulthood, but school is different. Every kind of environment has its callouts and drawbacks. A school environment allows you the freedom to pick what you want to pick, but at times, it can feel like a prison. In a work environment, you can also build a family, but there's always the fear of your unreasonable boss.

See what I mean? In terms of plans, I'm simply just reviving IB me; planning my creative experiences, and staying on top of work. And here most IB graduates say it has no use to them later in life. Those are the idiots that were forced into it or half-assed their way. The candidates that gave it their all, apply the skills to their life, and also about the loopholes.

Now, I just completely hate work, all my friends are trying to convince me to stay, but I never wanted to take business in the first place. I've always wanted to express myself, but I never had the guts to express myself. That's the takeaway from my life: you need to learn to express yourself.

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Elena

Oh, how I wish I was as happy as the others. Okay, my parents forced me to do something, but they didn't drill it into my head in childhood. I never really knew what I wanted to do in life. There were times I was tempted to just throw it all away.

I assume everyone has heard of the dreaded IB workload. Students have to pull all-nighters to study for their mocks and EAs, along with completing their IAs. I can understand what my coordinator was thinking before he met me, and looked at my grades: I was just some dumb backwoods hick that didn't know shit about IB, and would get below a 28. Well, that's all true (except for the 28 points), but I still came out victorious.

My IB victory came with a price, my mental health. I remember that at least once or twice a week when Year 1 started, I would have a breakdown over the smallest things, and that led to a full emotional vomit.

The point is the IB doesn't care whether you have a lack of sleep or good mental health, and looks, birthdays and holidays are at the bottom of the list. Some of us gave it our all, and that's why everyone dropped out of their IB because they felt overwhelmed just in the first week, and it felt like the end of the world. Well, that's how it felt with me, but I stuck it through, I'd like to say the most out of the 7 of us.

I mentioned earlier, I had high ambitions of being an actress, I was convinced I was meant for fame and movies. I got a lot of pushback for wanting to do it, but I didn't care; I wanted to be the world's next Ana de Armas or Meryl Streep. I tried it, but it didn't work.

Now, I don't blame the industry for my shortcomings, I guess it wasn't meant to be. Crazy story, I more or less canceled myself because of many reasons; was it that I dated Bollywood's Greek God, the drug abuse, the arguing on the Ellen Show? Or did I just simply retire? Maybe it was all of them, but that's a story we won't dive into just yet.

So, after all that happened, I decided to go down the creative but guaranteed success road; writing. I wasted my prime and body on a useless career, but no one cares what an author looks like. Look at all the BookTok community. These authors would be nothing without the Internet. Even if these books were old ones, they're only famous now.

The backup plan is I go back to making more money conventionally (through side businesses) to afford some courses for writing. I have managed to gain fame to fly Emirates, and barely enough for an Etihad. So, the side businesses led to a Fortune 500 company offering me a high-paying, high-fame job, and I was making headlines. "Former junkie turns money junkie," "Takedown? More like beatdown." Some of them showed me in a good light, some were just crude.

And then there was psychology. Psychology was something, a possible backup and never a passion. It was the only option for an HL, because the lying pervert never prioritized me and always the others. I wonder to this day why the actual fuck was Neha in love with him? She wasted her 20s stripping, fucking and drugging, and now look at her. She was born to Barrett.

I hated that HL; it's considered my worst HL and I did 4 even though I didn't need the 4th one, but I never dropped it. I stuck it in, and gave it everything no matter how much I hated it. I treated those classes as free lessons because I didn't learn shit from our teacher. That's why I scored a 7. At graduation, my psychology teacher told my coordinator that he'd never seen a more bright student in his career.

We know the IB god of the school, right? He agreed because I was the highest-scored student in his IB journey so then he stopped treating me like shit. So to answer the question, I didn't consider psychology, I was just stuck with it, and now I'm pursuing both my dreams.