If only my sorrys meant something

Doesnt this make me a...

They found them selves tangled in the bed, in each others embrace. A couple of moans escaped for Olivias mouth when Bojan started shooting kissed on her neck. Probably going to leave a mark the next day.

He felt something suddenly vibrant in his pockets. Who on earth could be calling him now?

Incoming call from Kris.

Of course, his band mates had to ruin this special moment. Why wouldn't they? They ruin everything!

"Im so sorry, my uh brothers calling me. I'll be back in a second." Bojan said, seeing the disappointment in her face made him feel guilty.

He stormed out of the room and answered it and almost screaming."What do you fucking want now Kris?"

"Woah, calm down, where are you?" Kris said, almost saying it with concern.

"Well, I'm with someone, a girl." Bojan couldnt keeo that a secret."But don't tell anyone, okay?"

Bojan suddenlt heard a familiar gasp, it wasn't Kris' though, then who's?

"Bojan.. What about Jere."

"Oh, I don't really know, I mean I'm not going to break up with him."

Then, he heard another voice, but this time behind him.

"You a BOYFRIEND? AND YOU DIDN'T TELL ME?" Olivia screamed, that he thought he was going to go out of the house with a few bruises.

"You never asked.." That was basically his one excuse.

He was busted.

Olivia kept shouting at him, so he just picked up his jacket and left before he got hurt in any way.

He started walking and trying to talk to Kris as he didn't hung up yet, but all be could here is crying. Why would Kris be crying? He hasent don't anything to hurt him?

"You know, Jere flew out to Slovenia, just for you and this is what you do? Sometime you were a asshole, but this is unbelievable." Kris said, in Slovenian. He sounded pissed. Extremely pissed.

But Jere was in Slovenia right now? And.. He knew.. That he cheated on him..

Oh no.

Would he be the reason why he just lost the relation ship with his soul mate?

How could he be so so stupid.

How could he do something like that to the one person he loved the most on this earth.

Before he could even answer, Kris hung up the phone, and the last thing he could hear was his boyfriends crying.

How could he do that to his beloved boyfriend?

What was wrong with him?

***
He ran to his apartment and he was nearly there, hoping he could see his boyfriend. At least a glimpse of him.

And there he was, standing outside with Kris hugging him and confronting him.

That should be him, not Kris.

"Jere! Wait! Please." Bojan shouted and ran up to them both.  Receiving dirty looks, which caused him to tear up.

But when Jere saw his face, he burst into tears.

He hurt him.

"What do you want now?" Kris hissed.

"Can I please talk to you alone. Jere?"

He looked over at Kris and Kris nodded, and slowly walked away to the near by park.

"Why?" Jere asked.

"I'm so sorry, I got a bit drunk.. And-."

"I asked why."

"I.. I needed someone to touch. I was missing you."

"Then call me."

"But it's not the same! I don't know why I did that.. Please, please give me another chance."

"I don't know. Do you even love me?"

"Of course! I love you the most in the world!"

"Then why would you cheat on me?"

"I.. I don't know. I'm sorry, please."

"I need time to think about this."

"Could I at least get a hug?"

"Yes."

Jere opened his arms to Bojan and Bojan quickly accepted.

His touch felt warm, with goosebumps all over his mighty arms. Both of their eyes started tearing up and they both never wanted to let go. But he could sense the hurt in Jere.

"I.. Love you." Bojan muttered out.

"I love you too, but this hurt. Really." Jere whispered.

"I understand. Is this.. The end.?" Bojan said with hesitation.

"For now.. No." Jere replied. "But I go back to Finland now."

"Thank God." Bojan felt relieved. "Can I at least pay for your flight back?"

"If you want yes, but it don't change anything."

"I'm still sorry."

"I'm disappointed Bojan."

A car pulled up and Jere walked up to it, dragging his suitcase after him.

"Are you.. Leaving? Now?"

"Yes. Bye."

"Oh. Bye.. I love you." Bojan muttered.

All he got was a look goodbye.

His last memory was of him entering the car.

What was wrong with him?

How could he do that?

"I love you too.." Bojan muttered to himself. Standing there with tears forming in his eyes.

Did he just ruin their relationship?

Wow Bojan. Wow.

I guess no more 'I love yous' for the next weeks. Or months. Or years.