𝗂𝗍 𝗌𝗍𝖺𝗋𝗍𝖾𝖽 𝗐𝗂𝗍𝗁 𝖺 𝗆𝗈𝗏𝗂𝖾 𝖽𝖺𝗍𝖾

Prologue

Yes, I said it sa una pa lang and I'll say it again.

I chose to love kasi masaya.

Masaya at masakit pero I'll still choose to kasi I don't see why not.

Totoo naman? You can't deny it either.

The butterflies we feel in our stomach, the random waves of heat on our cheeks just at the sight of our crushes, the giggles, the little air kicks we did thinking about them at the end of the day, the delulu moments we make, and more.

All these bring excitement and color to our lives.

Saya-saya mo nga sa onting sulyap lang kay crush, ako pa kaya?

It's outrageously, in a good way, thrilling and fulfilling to feel.

It feels like an adventure yet to unfold, diba? Or somewhat like a surprise gift you're delicately unwrapping, diba?

Pero sabi nga nila, hindi lahat nang nagsimulang masaya, patuloy na magiging masaya.

Paminsan, rollercoaster of emotions. Yung may halong sikip sa dibdib, iyakan, problema, lungkot, lahat lahat na. Pero which is definitely in normal levels naman.

Paminsan, araw-araw talagang masaya ('yan ang sana lahat).

Pero paminsan, lungkot at sakit na talaga ang gitna at tuldok.

Kaso sinimulan ko 'to kasi masaya kahit hindi ko alam if maligaya parin ba 'to hanggang dulo.

Hilig ko pong sumugod sa gera ng walang pamprotekta sa sarili, opo. Go lang ng go yata motto ng mga ninuno ko. Pasensya ho.

Paano ba kasi yan? Mapagmahal kasi akong tao. Desisyon, char, eme.

But really, loving someone truthfully with my all brings me joy. That's one thing I know about myself — I never stop loving.

Now that I have unexpectedly liked someone after the heartbreak, I wonder... will this time be a happy ending? Or something that will bring me pain again?

Will tirelessly loving someone be worth it now or will it slap me with regrets?

Can I really be definite I'd never stop loving or maybe I'm getting way too ahead of myself?

And will I be able to still proudly say at the end na masaya pa nga talagang magmahal?