Hurt | Remus Lupin

~31~ Lies

"Mum, when's Harry coming?" Asked Ron, through a mouthful of chicken.

"Eat with your mouth closed." She snapped. "I'm not sure, Dumbledore has to decide on that."

Tonks started changing her hair colour absent mindlessly while eating, and I watched with Awe.

"Make your hair look like mine." I demanded jokingly.

She obliged, and now her hair looked just like mine with the same thick sandy colour.

I grinned. "Wow, I wish I was a metamorphosis."

After dinner, we all lazed around the living room, me watching Ron and Ginny playing chess.

"Wrong move, buddy." I said to Ginny, as one of Ron's pieces smashed Ginny.

"Damn it!" She cried angrily as I laughed.

I was laying on my stomach on the ground next to Ollie, as we were watching, when I felt a pair of eyes watching. I glanced up to see Remus looking at me. I narrowed my eyes and he looked away, focusing on his goblet instead. I shook my head and turned back to the chess game.

I huffed with irritation. What sucked the most was that I really missed him, and seeing him front of me was making it so hard not to just grab him and hug him and never left go. I started tapping my hand on the floor.

"Merlin, Sara why are you so fidgety?" Asked Bill, noticing my hand.

"I hate sitting still for too long." I lied. "I'm going to get some water."

I went to kitchen and got myself a glass of water. I felt someone knock on the kitchen door. "Sara."

I turned around. "What is it Remus?"

"Can we just have a chat?"

I finished my water. "Fine.....Wait." The closer he got the more I noticed something on his neck. It was a dark spot, right under his jaw. A bruise

I felt my heart flop.

"What?" He asked, eyeing me with concern.

"Who gave you that?" I whispered, pointing to his neck.

"What?" He looked confused, before his eyes widened. "Oh! No Sara wait let me explain-"

"YOU LIAR!" I yelled. "YOU FUCKING LIAR!"

"No Sara please wait just listen-"

"NO! You, WHO DID THAT."

"Sara I-" he pleaded.

I ran out of the kitchen angrily. I wanted to grab Ollie and Bill and haul them away to talk, but just as I reached the living room, Remus caught up with me. "Sara please!"

"Oh enough fighting you too!" Sirius jumped up.

"Who." I demanded, rounding on Remus.

"Sara just calm down." Mrs. Wesley said. "Whatever it is, you can talk about it when you've calmed down."

"WHO!" I ignored Mrs. Weasley, staring down at Remus

"A muggle girl. I- I'd see her working at a coffee shop and, she invited me for tea and it just, escalated but it meant nothing to me!"

I let out a shrill laugh. "Nothing to you my arse! Did you know I went on a date with Charlie Weasley last year! I couldn't even hold his hand without thinking of you! We didn't even kiss because you're stupid fucking face would appear in my mind! I haven't let a single man touch me in a romantic way because of you! And here you are, claiming you still love me, yet letting a girl suck your face!"

Sirius gasped. "Actually Sara, fight him."

"I stopped her alright. I realized-" Remus pleaded

"Not until after she practically devoured your neck!" I cried, tears running down my face.

"I swear I stopped. Please! I was, it was a distraction! Sara I-I didn't know ..."

He tried to hold my hand but I shoved him away. "DONT TOUCH ME YOU FOUL MAN!"

And with that, I ran up the stairs, retreating to my room in tears once again.

Downstairs, I could faintly hear yelling voices.

"HOW COULD YOU DO SUCH A THING TO HER REMUS!" Mrs. Weasley yelled. "I didn't even know it was about you, but do you know how much she'd spent writing letters to you! Charlie came home saying what happened, and he said he could see the love she had for you in her eyes! He could see how much she missed you!"

"Remus you know I'm usually on your side but this was a horrible horrible move on your part." Sirius yelled.

Soon, Mrs. Weasley must of made everyone leave because the girls came into our room, and soon, Bill, Ollie and the twins did too.

"I'm sorry Sara." Bill said softly.

Ollie sat down on my bed and pulled me in, letting me sob onto his chest.

"It hurts so much because I still love him!" I wailed. "I still love him even though I don't want to!"

He rubbed my back while everyone else sat, just keeping my company.

"If it makes you feel any better, Lupin looked like he was close to tears." Fred said.

"Because he got caught!" Ginny cried.

I wiped my eyes. "Whatever. I'll be fine. I'll get over it. I'll be fine."

The next morning, I was glad to see that Remus wasn't at breakfast.

"He won't be coming around much anymore, except for the meetings." Sirius informed me.

"I don't care." I snapped, my eyes still red.

Once everyone had left last night, leaving just me and the girls, I found myself unable to sleep. Hermione was out cold, but Ginny stayed up keeping me company.

"He's a filthy liar." I sighed.