"Tell me huh? Do you want m--"
"Because Haewon kissed me the same night you kissed me, dammit" you can't help it now as your emotions already flowed
Chaewon was left speechless in disbelief, she felt pain on her chest just imagining you and your ex kissing
"I know it's stupid okay? But I swear she's the one who kissed me first, I-I don't know why did I even kissed her back, it happened so fast" you tried to explain although you didn't have to because there's nothing between you and Chaewon, but still you did because you feel the need to
Chaewon was still in pure shock, it hurted her even more knowing you kissed your ex back, she felt angry not just because of that but because you didn't stop her the night she kissed you
"Then why didn't you stopped me when I kissed you?" you didn't know how to respond with that, so you just look at your feet as tears started cascading on your face
"You could've told me to stop, because I would, so then I wouldn't hope that maybe you feel the same" Chaewon was deeply hurt that she started to cry, she felt her heart being ripped and teared apart
"You should have stop me, so then I wouldn't be hurt" She can't help her emotion and poured it all to slap you in the chest targeting your heart making you stumbled in you position
"You could have Y/n, but you didn't" countinuesly banging your chest, you stopped her by holding both of her hands and look directly to her eyes
"Why are you even acting like this? There's nothing even going between us Chae.." you felt a little annoyed, you felt like it was unfair of her to be mad when in fact there nothing going between you two, you two aren't together..
She scoffed at your statement because she can't believe what's happening
"Are fucking dumb? Don't you see how I look at you? Don't you see how much I care about you? Don't you see how much I WANT YOU?
How I fucking love you?..
Can't you see it?"
At this point Chaewon was beyond mad and hurt of how oblivious you are, she didn't understand why you're so clueless, she made sure she did everything to show how much she loves you, that's why she even kissed you
"I'm fucking in love with you Lee Y/n
I'M FUCKING AM!!!
But you know what it's not just me who fucking loves you so much, but also them" she said before pointing at the entrance door of the kitchen, you then saw your other members looking so disappointed and hurt about what they heard while both of you argue
They were there from the very start of your conversation with Chaewon, they all heard everything
"Now do you know why I'm so mad?"
She asked you with tears on her cheeks, and for a second you felt your heart broke at the sight of her, you can see from her eyes that she was deeply hurt from all of this
"I'm sorry" with sincerity you apologized to her, which only made her cry even more
"I'm sorry Chae" you tried to touch her but she avoided it and sprint out of the kitchen
Not knowing what to do, you look at your other members
"I-I can explain" You tried to approach them to atleast properly explain it but all they do was looked at you with hollow eyes
"There's nothing to explain, we all heard everything" Yunjin said before tears fall down from her eyes, she quickly went out from the scene and was followed by the other members, which left you with pain volting all over your body
You tried to follow them but you were too late as you watch them get in their respective room, looking above from the living room
A deafening silence sorrounded you as you stare at the stairs, with nonstop tears flowing from your eyes, you sobbed there not knowing what to do
It's all fucked up and that's all you can think about
So then an idea came to your mind and figured out that they need time, so you walk through the sofa, grab your hoodie and went for the door
It was still raining but you didn't care and walk fastly, and since you didn't bring your car since the day in the park, you walked in the midst of the pouring rain....
... Crying
[I imagined this scene while listening to space song by beach house, and damn I felt my heart ripping]
A chapter for you guys to celebrate another cb of NEW JEANS 😜
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NOT OKAY | LE SSERAFIM 7th member
FanfictionISSUES, any ISSUES can be a big impact on your career. It can ruined your career, reputation and yourself What could possibly happen when you were got to be involved in one What would you do when you're already ruined in peoples eyes? As they says...
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