I've been lost for so long, roaming in darkness of my mind for so long that I'd forgotten what it felt like to have someone there for me. She pulled me from the darkness.
They all pulled me from the darkness and showed me the light. Each one I met showed me a part of the light. Each of them built me up and fixed me when I couldn't fix myself.
Just being around each of them helped me on days I woke up hating myself, and no matter how great it felt, it never lasted and they each left until I was back to where I'd started.
Hating myself. Something always went wrong until I started to feel like I was the problem, like I let them all down, like I betrayed their trust and I hurt them all, that all the voices in my head were right.
I wasn't good enough for anyone, and I didn't want to keep being a poison in anyone else's live.
I knew there was only one truth, and that was maybe they'd all be happier if I didn't cause them problems with my existence, I knew that all these people couldn't be all wrong, maybe they were right, maybe I was the problem and I had to take myself out of the equation.I promise that I'm not gonna stop UNTIL I DIE.
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Until I Die
Non-FictionYou think your life is complicated. Well, strap in and welcome to the train wreck that is the life of James Morrison, whose life is an active dumpster fire, and follow him as he tells you in exquisite detail, the events of the last 3 years, and how...
