It had now been a week since the whole incident with my producer and Willow. Every day has been a struggle, to eat, to get out of bed, but to say the least it has gotten easier with Willow helping me every step of the way.
On the days when I can't get out of bed, I'm writing, writing anything my heart wants to say, and sending it all to my producer. Most of it I'm really proud of but other's not so much. Today is my fitting for Jack and I's movie premier, the thing I have been dreading the most.
The closer I got to this date the more I feel like I have to change the way I look. The feeling of going to this premier and him bringing her makes me feel uneasy. She will obviously look amazing and here I am looking like I crawled out of a hole.
I took a shower this morning, and then I had a little breakfast, the most I could stomach before feeling like I was going to puke. I somewhat got ready and then made my way out of the flat. Willow was finally going to see Josh today, which I had to convince her to do because she swore up and down that she needed to be with me today but I promised I'd be fine.
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"So when do you want to release it?" My producer says as sit in his studio "I think before the premiere and I know that's so close but I really love this song," I say while smiling and taking a bite out of my pizza
"I think we can make that happen, I mean the song is done, you just need to talk to your publicist and manager," He smiles
"I talked to my manager earlier and she said she thinks that now is as best time as any, and my publicist will most likely be fine with it," I say while leaning back on the couch
"Do you think you think you want to do a music video with this one?" He asks while leaning back in his chair "I'm not sure, I don't even know what the cover art is gonna be yet," I laugh
"If you wanna release this before Saturday then you better figure it out," He laughs and I nod "I was thinking maybe Wednesday I shoot for the cover and just go from there, see how people react to the song, and if they like it that much then maybe a video," I shrug
"I honestly think this is one of your best songs yet, I truly like it," He says and I smile. Now this song is not one of my personal favorites but it's good to know that other people like it.
"Hey bitches," Willow says while walking into the studio "Hey," I smile at her
Since Willow and I have the same producer we usually schedule our sessions back to back because I like to sit in and watch her sing, but today unfortunately I cannot do that because I'm going to look at some flats not too far from her flat
"Well, I do have to get going, but I'm going to talk to my manager tonight about getting a photographer and we'll come up with something," I smile at him "Okay good luck, I know whatever route you go will be good," He smiles and I say a short goodbye to Willow before walking out
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willowbarnes: come back to the studio I miss you ^indigoreid: I'll see you in like an hour haha
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