Boys Discipline School for Misbehaviours

Chapter 7

I blocked out the sound. I wanted the world to fall away, I wanted darkness to rap me in it's comfort just for a moment of piece, I wanted the quietness, the calm, I wanted it to be over.

I lay on the bottom bunk, eyes closed, Maxton's voice becoming a muffle in the distance.

I have to breath, deep breaths, in and out, nothings here, you're safe. My breathing speeds up, my heart pacing, my eyes squeeze shut, I can't do this, I don't know what to do, I have to calm down now before Maxton notices, in, out, in, out. It's not working, just try again, in, out, in, out, I place my palms over my eyes, pressing down, I feel a slight wetness against them. Please don't do this, please just breath, I need to calm down.

My breathings loud, I try to focus on the breaths, in, out, my palms are still glued to my eyes, in, out,-.

I feel his hands on my arms before I hear him say, "Hey Leo, what's happened, what's going on?"

No this can't be real, I don't want Maxton here right now, I don't want anyone here, this is so embarrassing, which just seems to make it worse.

The feeling of shame swallows me, along with the over whelming feeling of regret and embarrassment, Maxton leans down, rapping himself around me.

"Hey it's ok, everything will work out and be ok."

This is so embarrassing what am I doing!?

The thought makes me cry harder.

I want my old bed back, my old life back, my brother, my friends, I want it all back to normal.

Maxton continues to hug me, slowly rocking me back and forth, my sobs are loud, my arms are not moving from my eyes, Maxton grabs one of my arms, trying to tug it down from my face, however the tug didn't work, I refused to move my arms.

"Leo talk to me."

"No." I sob, my voice wavering.

"Why? What's happened?" He inquires.

"Nothing." I mutter, my voice is three octaves higher, the tears are all over my cheeks, I sniff.

Maxton raps his fingers around my wrists pulling them down, I try to not get them removed from my eyes, but my body feels weak and I can't be bothered to fight his strength, instead I just turn my head away from his eyes, trying to hide my tears in the pillow.

Maxton quickly moves my head gently to face his, before I can bury my head into the pillow.

"Leo, you can trust me. If there's anything you need to get off your chest, or you just need to vent, or want advice, anything, I'm here for you. Please."

"It's nothing, I don't even know what's happening." I wine.

"...Is it something to do with your dom?" Maxton whispers.

"Don't even bring that stupid idiot into this!" My sadness turned to anger, before sobbing again in despair from yelling at someone who's trying to help me, I always do this.

I start crying again into Maxton's shoulder.

"I'm sorry!"

"Leo, it's ok." He sooths as he rubs his hand up and down my back slowly.

"Just go away Maxton."

"No Leo."

"Maxton, get away from me, It's all pointless!" I snap.

"I'll say it again Leo, no I'm not leaving you, do whatever you have to do, yell ,scream, hit me, whatever! But I'm not leaving you."

I push Maxton away from me, his head hitting the wall. We stare at one another for a second before he rushes back at me pinning me to the bed, his legs rap around my waist from the back as he raps his arms around my head in a headlock.