I should of knows
Years ago
I would end up here
End up alone
Nine years ago I had friends
I had fun
I was happy
Nine years later it's gone
My friends all left me
They all found something better in someone else
I don't blame them
I would of too
I haven't been happy in seven years
I've disassociated to pass the time
Pass my life it seems
I don't remember anything
It's all a time warp blur
Disassociated past memories
Past events, time and people
It's all over now
I don't even remember their names
Gone
Gone past my life
Is it even mine anymore?
No one can tell
No one knows what I think when I am here
Friends and freedom is what I want
Maybe I would be able to stay in my body
Even if I did I don't think I could stay present
My body lives on
My mind dies off
Slowly
Slowly decaying
My body is going too
Just ignore it
My organs should just give out already
Let me free of my life
No one wants me
I was a mistake
A regret
A situation that needs to be taken away
Gone
Away from everyone
I listen to everyone around me enjoy life
I try to ignore them
They ignore me in return
Oh well
I give up
Gone is all I want
Away
Disappear into the background
