She watches from the window
It's hot everyone's out
The circle full of her so called friends
They run and play
Screaming while hitting each other with blasts of water
Leave the window she tells herself
It'll only make you sadder
Stay stay
Watch them
Evaluate their movements
Hours tic by
They have gone inside
I want to watch them more
But their gone
She didn't let me go
She said I wasn't good enough to go
Try more and you can go play
Okay I said
Hopeful
Longing to go outside instead of being locked in
Trapped in the 30 square foot room
My mind replayed the kids playing
I picked what I would of done as them
Running and playing in my dreams
Longing to be like them
"Everyone is treated like this, no one talks about it that's all"
"Don't tell anyone. You were sick today"
"Ok mom"
The next day came
Pleas let me go
No
Tears well up. Don't show it
This is normal I told myself
I never got to play with them
When I finally could they didn't play anymore
They had grown up they said
Lost in the past
Childhood longing trapped forever
