Lily

Chapter 1

   "FUCK STUPID BITCH!" Todd screamed through the trailer. Putting my hands over my head probably sounded childish for being seventeen, just four more months until I turn eighteen. To be fair though the screams were almost like nails being shoved into my eye sockets. If mom, and I use that term as loose as a garbage bag, scored tonight then maybe they both will just pass out and leave me alone. But I don't have much faith in that, luck never seems to be on my side these days. Well years honestly. Sounds of dishes breaking and more yelling go on for hours it seems like. You would think that they would be quiet considering I have four hours until I have to be up for school, but you would also think your mom wouldn't be smoking meth or letting her piece of shit boyfriend do things to you. But here we are at 2 am like every night. Tapping on the window makes me look up, cringing I know how I look sitting on the floor rocking back and forth with my hands covering my ears but Dominic doesn't flinch. Opening the window he sticks his head in and whispers "hey baby wanna come over and sleep for a little bit before school?" Looking up at Dom I nod my head yes and start to crawl towards him. I make my way to the window just as a thud hits my door. "Lily open the fucking DOOR." Todd screams. "Come on baby let's get you out of here for a bit. The guys are waiting." Dominic and the guys have been a constant since I was five years old. Dominic, Ryder, and Mateo. My entire world revolves around them but if you let them tell it they'll tell you I'm the center of them. Todd shakes the door handle and I run to the window and climb out. Still hearing him scream and yell and shake my door so hard I'm surprised it hasn't come off the hinges. Dominic grabs my hand and we run to the black Escalade waiting two trailers down from mine. Opening the back door for me I climb in and sit down looking over I see Mateo in the back with me and Ryder is up front driving like usual. Dom buckles my seatbelt in and jumps in the passenger seat. Mateo grabs my hand but doesn't say anything. My gentle giant usually doesn't talk too much but I always seem to know what he's thinking. Squeezing his hand I whisper "I'm okay big guy just sleepy." Squeezing my hand back he pulls me over and I lay my head on his shoulder and close my eyes. We start driving back to I'm assuming Ryder's house and he finally speaks " Lily he didn't do anything did he?" Without lifting my head or even opening my eyes I squeeze out a no and leave it at that. It wouldn't be the first time he's hit me or even did worse honestly but the guys don't know about that. How do you tell someone hey guys my moms boyfriend rapes me or that him and my mom let guys do stuff to me just so they get their next fix. I can't. I can't fix my mouth to say those words. I can't push them out no matter how hard I scream in my head for help. Sighing Dominic looks back and says "just a little longer til you turn 18 baby then we're getting you the fuck out of there." Not bothering with a reply because I can't get my hopes up for that. I can't bring myself to believe that I'll be here by then or that Todd and mom would just let me go. In a perfect world maybe but my worlds not perfect it's hell.
I must have passed out because I feel myself being lifted and carried out of the car. My guess would be Ryder I swear he doesn't let me walk sometimes. All the guys are around 6'2 freaking giants for eighteen year olds. All being seniors and going to the same school we've grown up together and they aren't the same scrawny boys I played outside with. Dominic has the blackest hair I've ever seen short on the sides and long on top just enough for me to run my fingers through. And beautiful blue eyes I swear I go in a trance when I stare into them too long. All the boys are muscled up and tattooed. Dom has a snake that starts from his shoulder and goes and wraps around all the way down his arm and stops with the head on his hand. Ryders hair is dark brown and longer that Dominic's but not too long just enough I can tell when he's stressed because it's messed up from him running his hands through it so much. He too has tattoos but his are everywhere. His back and chest are covered, his back has the most beautiful angel wings I've ever saw. They almost look realistic like he could fly away. On his chest is different roses but they're dying. The petals scattering all over his chest. He always looks pissed at the world but that's just so people will leave him alone. Ryders never yelled or been mean to me. Maybe that's just me though. Mateo, Matty is my gentle giant. Hair like Ryder but always styled just right. Never messed up. The only tattoo Mateo has is my name on his heart with a lily pad beside it. I told him he was crazy when he got it but he just smiled and said I was the one who owned his heart anyways so why not put my name there. I love all three and it's crazy I know but so am I so it's fitting.
I hear Ryder whisper out "we've got to get her the fuck out of there. I swear to god I'm going to bash his fucking skull into the wall and string him up by his balls." He grips me a little tighter almost enough to leave bruises and I must make a noise cuz he loosens his grip immediately and leans down and kisses my forehead. "Sorry baby." He murmurs. We must make it to his room cuz I feel myself being lowered to a bed and slipped under the covers. I feel another set of lips being brushed across my forehead and the sound of the balcony doors open. The smell of cigarettes reach my nose and I know it's Dominic, I should get up to throw it down but this bed is too comfortable to move so I'll leave it alone for now. Doms voice reaches my ears " We can't kill them now, if we do she'll be put in the foster system and who the fuck knows where she'll end up. At least here we can watch her." He says. Ryder grits out " You really think dad would let that happen. He loves her more than me and I'm his blood." He laughs but he's serious. His dad may be head of the mafia ring in our state but he loves me like his own. I've heard the stories and they all talk about how Ryder's dad Trip is the scariest man around but I've never saw him even raise his voice so I find it hard to believe. I mean I'm not naive I know what goes on I've just never witnessed it. Mateo reply's with a grunt and says "yeah but is that a chance we're willing to take. What if it's too far out of his hands and we lose her even if it's for four months. I can't go through that and neither can she." Mateo doesn't speak much but when he does it's serious. Being the youngest of six other siblings he wasn't heard very much so unless it's to us youll be lucky to get more than a single word response from him. Blowing out his breathe ryder says "I guess so, but four months and then they're done and she comes here." They all come in and lay down. Ryder to my back and Dom to my front. Mateo stands by the bed until he lays down by my feet. I don't let on that I heard anything so I just stay still. Dom grabs my hand gently and whispers "four more months babygirl, then it'll be okay." I just hope I can hold out that long.