Short Stories

Estrella & Ivan: What happened after

If you haven't read Estrella and Ivan's oneshot, I suggest you do because it picks up where it left off. You don't have to read the smut but just the part where Ivan explains himself and their situation. 

Estrella's Pov

Pulling the sheets to my chest, I stare at Ivan with hurt. Trying to understand what he just told me. 

"Why the hell would you say that?" I snap at him

"I don't...I just wanted..." he stumbles over his words and I can see the panic in his eyes

I scoff at him shaking my head at him. I can feel my anger rising.

"You have no right to say that to me. Especially during sex. God, you have the worst timing. You don't get to say you've been in love with me this whole time when the whole point of you breaking up with me was for us to move on with our lives" my voice raised and it gets harder for me to contain my anger

"I know I know. I know shouldn't have said it during sex. I'm sorry. But I meant what I said. I still love you Estrella and I know I shouldn't have said it during sex, but I couldn't hold it in anymore. I know I hurt you and you have every right to not want to speak to me again but I just wanted to tell you" his voice comes out trembling and I see his hands shaking

I stared at him for a while trying to process what he told me. I remember his the look on his face when I said I was clean and on birth control.

"Why did you get quiet when I told you I was clean and on birth control?" I ask

He looks away from me, clenches his jaw, and stays quiet. That just gave me my answer.

"You are unbelievable. You're the one who told me you wanted me to have a college experience and I did and you get weird. You don't get to be mad when you told me you were only with me for sex in high school. I didn't find out about the real reason for our break up till less than two hours ago. You wanted me to have the college experience and I did so you don't get be angry or upset about it" I snap at him

I wipe away the angry tears that fall from my eyes. Ivan looks at me with his green eyes full of sadness as he sees me wipe the tears. He tries to get close to me but I push him away pulling the sheets closer to my body. Hurt flashes across his face but he scrubs a hand over it.

"You're right. I have no right to be upset that you've had relationships in the past. You're right" he mutters

We stay silent for awhile not looking at each other.

"Estrella" he call my name

"What?" I snap

"I know I don't deserve this but I want to make it up to you. I want to prove to you I still love you. You are the woman I see. You're the one who stays on my mind twenty four seven. You're the one I think about when I wake up and go to bed. You're the only reason why I came to the wedding in hopes of seeing you. I know you probably hate me but please let me make it up to you. I want you back in my life but I want you in it if you want to be. I've hated myself everyday for breaking up with you. I've never forgiven myself for hurting you. So please let me make it up to you. If you want me to leave you alone. I will. If you don't want me to get into contact with you. I won't. But I'm begging you to please give me one more chance to make things right" tears fall from his eyes as he says those words

His voice shakes as he spoke and I see the shaking in his hands have gotten worse. I stare at him with a blank face. I don't know what to say. I don't know what I want from him. I want to see how he'll make it up to me. But I also want us to go our separate ways. We're not the same people we were in high school. He hurt me when he spoke those words to me the day of our breakup. I don't think he realizes how much damage he did to me. I rub my eyes and sigh. I look back at him and see his eyes full of anxiousness.

"I'm going to shower" I say pulling the sheets off my body and sliding out the bed

"Make sure the door is closed properly and put the do not disturb sign on your way out" I say and walk towards the bathroom and close the door

***

Ivan's Pov

I stare at the closed bathroom door. I feel my anxiety kicking in and I feel my body shaking.

She wants me to leave her alone?

She wants me out of her life?

I let out a shaky breath and get up from the bed and walk towards where my boxers lay. I hear the shower turn on and I feel my body grow still. I need to hear tell me whether she'll give me a chance or not. I need to hear her say the words. I walk towards the bathroom door and turn the knob feeling that it's unlocked. I open the door and see the bathroom if already steaming up. I walk in and quietly close the door. I walk towards the shower and pull the curtains to the side. Estrella jumps but then rolls her eyes when she sees me.

"What do you want Ivan?" she says running her fingers through her hair

"I want to give me answer"

"Ivan this is a whole different conversation that can wait"

I step in the shower and close the curtains. She looks at me as if I'm crazy.

"What the fuck Ivan?" she snaps

I step closer to her and grip her chin.

"I need to know if I have a chance to make it up to you. Please Angel. Please tell me" I beg

She stares at me with sad eyes and it makes me want to do anything for her to make the sadness go away. Those hazel eyes roaming around my face. She closes them and a heavy sigh leaves her lips. When she opens her eyes they're full of vulnerability but a little bit of hope.

"One chance" she whispers

"Really?" I whisper

She nods her head and gives me a small smile. I felt a smile come up on my face and I pull her to my chest. Her body leans to me and her arms wrap around my waist. We hug each other letting the warm water hit us. She pulls her head back and places her chin on my chest and stares up at me. I take one look at her lips and it takes me less than a second to lean down and kiss her. She kisses me back softly and I smile into the kiss. I pull away and place a kiss on her forehead.

"I promise I will do everything to prove to you I still love you and make up for everything I've done" I whisper in her ear