It never gets easy to see people growing out of a relationship that you badly want to hold onto but one way or another, you have to accept the fact that some people only stay with you for a season and it's not their fault. It's just they are also growing and evolving the same way that you do and maybe, the direction that they want to go to no longer points to where your path is leading and though it may not be okay for now, it'll eventually be if you give your heart enough time to heal. From constantly messaging each other to never at all, from hanging out every time you're free to never asking, from having sleepovers and talking about life to having an invisible wall that seems to be standing in between your love. It'll hurt you to see them be happy within someone else's presence, it'll hurt you to see them asking someone else the things they used to ask you, it'll hurt that you'll no longer become the person they run to whenever they need advice and it'll hurt so fucking bad to know that you can't do anything about it but watch. It's not their fault and it's not yours either so please don't blame yourself for why things turned out the way it did. Just know that you tried your best in loving them in the best way you know how and that should be enough for yourself.
The fear that you have in your heart is normal so feel it, cry until your tears dries out, be sad because you deserve to. You deserve to feel hurt and mourn for a beautiful relationship that bloomed because of your genuine love but do not dwell on the fact that it ended, dwell on the things you learned throughout the journey, be grateful that you were allowed to know their heart once upon a time. That you get to become their solace for a moment in time, isn't that such a beautiful thing? That they chose you once when they could've chosen someone else who deserves it more? You whose rough on the edges, you who couldn't even expressed what she genuinely feels in words...You were chosen. You were loved and I hope that love is what stays within the corners of your heart the longest instead of the hurt that you constantly try to hide right now.
"The beauty of life is in the people whom your heart beats for, even if theirs no longer beat for you."
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Random Thoughts at 3 Am
PoetryThese are the words I wish to desperately hear but never really did so I decided to write them instead with the hope that when I need them again, I can always go back here to remind myself that I am a soul with a purpose and that I am strong enough...
