*before reading this, just know that this is a extremely graphic poem in which i wrote in the past and was severely depressed. it can be sensitive to some people to read. TW: self harm, suicide, depression*
i look into the mirror and see an empty girl
the same girl little and brittle, saw the same
even as a kid she looked and felt
everything i feel now
she just was clueless and didn't know
she didn't know why she didn't belong here in life, in this world
she didn't understand why she wanted to take her life away
years later i do
i tried
because even now i don't feel right
i don't feel like i belong
that's why i tried to bleed out into my death
that's why i wanted the pills to be my final meal
that's why i decorated my arms and legs in stripes
anything to get me one step closer to belonging
i came into this world as the biggest mistake
and i wanted to leave the same way,
making a mistake
but i cant leave
i will never make that mistake again
so i have to keep fighting with myself
i have to walk out the doors and pretend
pretend I didn't spend my night on the bathroom floor
fighting to not let go
like lil uzi said
that's the way life goes
i have to keep going and move with the flow
YOU ARE READING
a glimpse in my shoes
Poetrywords i put on paper i write to take a step closer to my healing journey silly or not these words mean so much to me and maybe when you read it you might feel something years of feelings growth and change is what you will read as i continue to gr...
