Free verse poetry

My life please comment vote fan :)

My life seems so peachy from looking outside the looking glass but my life looks great from the outside. But in reality my life is different from other average nineteen year olds. I look too young for my age I get that a lot I'm a virgin. You could say I'm pretty innocent never did drugs. Never had a chance to taste alcohol. I live with to over baring protective parents that need to know every detail down to the tee. I'm a grade A student yet still I'm not that bright I have to work for every thing that I have I don't just get things handed to me. People say I should be proud of myself but I don't feel it's proud being a not ordinary teenager. A lot of things confuse I can't get away with anything yet when my parents were my age they could raise hell and not give a damn but me I'm nineteen years old and I have no freedom they worry to much about me. This isn't a sob story of my life it's just how I see things. I have a younger brother I don't care to say his name he's a little brat he runs all over my parents I watch him do it, he laughs in the faces not literally but he goes behind their backs bragging he got away with getting in trouble. The brat is 10 years old he gets into trouble like he is two years old. He's always making messes and Lieing about it. The brat is disrespectful to everyone that has authority. To tell y'all the truth I don't know what goes on in his head. I'm tired of being that nineteen year old that gets embarrassed because my parents are so darn protective I couldn't tell y'all how many times I get looks like I'm crazy for asking a million questions. It gets old that's probably why I don't have much a social life I hate asking to hang out at a friends house they have to know every detail I hung out with a friend once in what four years? Yup that's right four years and haven't been on a date in two years. That I think would truly make me become a pathetic teenager. I write all the time, which is probably lame it's something I live for a thing that no one can ever take away from me. I just wish I knew I was good in my heart I know that I am but somewhere deep down I feel I suck at writing. I sometimes wonder why write when people might criticize me and may put me down lowering my self-esteem. I write because it's like lifting a heavy anchor off of my heart. A relief that's stronger than any hearts desire. I don't want to scare my fans off. I want to make fans. Sorry for all my life dramas if you want more story's besides my life's dramas give me topics or story ideas :). Pleas pretty please comment and vote and fan that would mean so much to me I'd probably cry of happiness lol :) well I'm done with my blabbering I'm under my blanket supposed to be sleeping it's 10:15 pm in Arkansas right now goodnight please comment vote fan thanks JJ