Trauma Bonding

Her Love

I thought it was love

I thought it was a happily ever after in the making

Thought she was the one

She was my first

My first crush

My first love

My first date

My first kiss

My first forever after

I thought she was a miracle

Sent from the gods above to comfort me-

Protect me-

Love me-

Cherish me

I've never been so afraid of being wrong

It was magical

That first kiss

It happened fast

Without warning

But it was so easy-

So simple

Like it was meant to happen

But it got too deep too fast

I wanted love-

Soft kisses and orange peel smiles

She wanted practice and experience-

Red paint to cover the white roses

And I was an easy target

She loved me

In some way I know she did

But her love wasn't enough to understand the word no

Her love didn't reach farther than the passion of our lips

Her love-

Without mine-

Was meaningless

And that nearly broke me to the point of no return