I just didn't hear my gynecologist single word and entered Neil's room hold his hand and start crying....like crazy he is the only one who love me who really care for me...for whom I am his 1st priority...I can't lost him you wanna tell me selfish you can but he is the reason of my smile my happiness he is the reason I wanna trust people again....he is my sunshine who brings rays of happiness in the darkness of my life.....he is the person without whom I can't assume my life he is the person whom I loved soo much after my Mom... I lost my mom a years ago...I can't bear that pain again...I am not strong enough to face that phase again...he need to get well....
"Ye aasmaan aur zameen..
Bin tere kuch bhi nahi....
Saanson se mohlat......Zara maang lena...
Yoon uthke jaate nahi....Ya phir tu mujhe le chal...
Sang apne jidhar tu chala
Tum bin jiya jaaye kaise
Kaise jiya jaaye tum bin"
l start talking to him...I know he his unconscious but deep down he can feel my word I know... oh hello Mr. Chamgadar... Mr. Neil Birla ye kya harkat hai aapne mughse promise kiya tha aaj ham choti sii long drive par jayenge dher sari batte karenge even mughe aapko ek surprise bhi dena tha... or aap yha iss tarh se kaise soo skate hai uthiyee ....chamgadar mai tumse hi baat kar rahi hu thodi ijjat kya dedi tum to ignore karne lage chalo utho...oyyee chamgadar sun rahe ho utho na chamgadar utho naaa plzzz uthoo naaa (my voice start getting low.... I start crying)
"Tum bin jiya jaye kaise...
Kaise jiya jaye tum bin..."
I say in crying voice plzzz chamgadra uthh jaoo...
apni chipkali ki baat sun lo na uth jaaoo na chamgadar plzzzzz...I Swipe my tears acha mere liye na sahi hamare nanhe chipkali ya phir chamgadar ke liye to uthh jaoo... plzzz..Mr.papa chamgadar uth jaooo...he didn't response .... everything stop for a second......my tummy start hurting...I shout...My family members come inside and they are taking me to gynecologist someone hold my sarees palu an unknown smile appeared on my face I turn.....Neil....
" So gayi hain ye saansein sabhi
Adhoori si hai kahaani meri "
no my palu got stuck in something....we go to gynecologist she examine me and tell that this is my 1st month of pregnancy I need to be aware...even a singel stress can harm my baby... I know I need to be strong... I see the hope and disappointment in my family eyes but......my strength who always supported me hold my hand and say sab thik ho jayega chipkali...he is in OT his life is in danger but I promise them i take care of myself... Doctor say I need to go home... I don't want but for my baby I need to... i decided to go home straight bcoz if i met him I can't handle myself.
I am about to sit in my car my sister scream aaru.....my heat pause or beeep.....she said Neil ko hoss aagya hai vo tughe dhund rha hai.... I run straight towards his room...my foot stop at door of room...a little smile on my face...tears are falling constantly....I can't even explain my felling in that second when he was looking at me...smiling....
"Maine tera naam dil rakh diya
Maine tera naam dil rakh diya
Dhadkega tu mujhmein sada
Maine tera naam dil rakh diya..."
I hold his hand tightly and shout ye kya behavior hai chamgadar...haa vada karke koi aise harkat karta hai kya taki usee vada na pura karna pade he laughed..and replied meri pagal chipkali..... I took his one hand and place on my tummy dekh rahe hona baby aapke papa ko mughe rulla ke kaise has rah hai...smile appeared on his face questions in his eyes really, mai papa....he say dekh rahe ho na baby apni mumma ko kitna late kardiye aapke baare me batane me pta nahi mai aapse dubara baat kar paunga ya nahi isliye aapse ek promise chaiye apni mumma ka hamesa khayal rakhna. I stopped him ye kya bakwas hai chamgadar baby keh do aapne papa se khyal to unhe hi rakhna hoga vaise bhi unki chipkali abhi itni jimmedar nahi
Doctor arrived and say he need to examine Neil....I need to left him alone... he hold my hand and said...chipkali agar mughe kuch hojaye to vada karo...apna khayal rakhogi hammare aane wale baby ka khyal rakhogi..I say ye kya bakwas hai chamgadar mai aisa koi vada nahi kar rahi he said chipkali plzz...Promise me tum kamjor nahi paadogi tum khud ko hamri family ko hamare hone wale baby ko sambhalogi.....plzzz chipkali promise me...I know meri chipkali bahut strong hai vo khud ko tutne nahi degi, nahi padogi na kamjor chipkali bolo na....his heart beat is rasing his body temperature is increasing i feel his pulse don't behaving normal he is still in OT his condition start getting worse so I promise and make my hand free from his he said always remember one thing chipkali I love you..I love you...his eyes strat getting closed he is unconscious again... I leave the room saying I love you 2 chamgadar....
" haathon ki lakeerein do milti jahaan hai jisko pata hai bata de jagah woh kahaan hai ishq mein jaane kaisi ye bebasi hai dhadkano se milkar bhi dil tanha hai..."
my family start forcing me to go home even my gynecologist
I don't know what to do how to deal with this i don't want left him alone at that moment but I also can't take risk bcoz maybe..it's dangerous for my baby as I promised Neil to take care of my baby and my self I decided to go home...... but after reading his reports..doctor handover the reports to me I read them...doctor say be strong, believe in god....I return the reports seat on the bench again conscious but unconscious...my sister drive me home...it's early morning.... she told me to take rest.... I know I can't go in that room alone and if I did I can't control myself...so I go to Pooja room and sit there she gave me medicine...both of us sit there praying God for Neil's health...fun fact...I am also a doctor and after that last moment I meet him.... his reports....praying God to make him well soon...seems like I am giving a hope to myself which is the biggest lie I told to myself.....but I want tell that lie to myself....this is 1st time I feel Kash mai doctor na hoti...to kamse kam khud ko dilasha to de Patti ki sab sahi hoga...but this the harsh reality and I know I need to prepare myself very well for this for my baby....for the promise I make to him...
My heart is behaving like a little child some time get too much emotional sometime tell me to be strong sometimes it beat soo fast or sometimes feel like my heart stop beating..Reports I read....his decreasing pulse rate I fell that when he hold my hands at last moment I met him....... all things are moving in my head.......everything goes blank..........I scream Neil.....
"Pal, do pal, ki hi kyun hai zindagi
Iss, pyar, ko hai sadiyaan kaafi nahi
Toh khuda se maang lun
Mohalat main ik nayi
Rehna hai bas yahaan
Ab door tujhse jaana nahi"
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Little emotional....
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