I see you move so I do understand why you get attention

chapter nine

point of view Liam

I know i'm supposed to tell his father about all this and I shouldn't lie to Niall but I want the kids to trust me Connor came to me because he wanted to talk the door opens "the last time he fell asleep on the couch is almost four years ago I'll bring him to bed" Niall says I nod four years ago wow she did some pretty bad damage to them all of them "what did you do today?" I smile we had a fun day today I couldn't ask Connor about the damage and who she hurted.

"I played soccer with Louis, danced with Connor and listened to him play, baked sweets with Liv and your mother was with Harry the whole day we played some boardgames" I say "you guys had fun since Amelia started using drugs he never fell asleep around someone Connor has the most damage mentally and Louis physically all to protect Livie and I tried to help them but she did it when I was at work" I thought Amelia was his girlfriend later and was good for them but she wasn't okay we know that there's a lot to learn.

"do you think you can babysit tommorow again from seven till eleven?" Niall asks "yeah but I don't think I'm going home then it's around three when I get home" he nods I live on the otherside of the country so it takes a while before I'm home I know Connor hates me but I don't know what I did for him to hate me and I want to know he talks to me but tries to kill me at the same time this guy is pretty complicated and I don't know what I need to do to make it easier.

the next day

"are you here again? we hoped you would quit after all we did" Connor says full off hate "you don't get me to quit that easy it takes a lot more than some pranks and hate to get me away" he rolls his eyes and walks away I look at Louis this guy needs serious help and I don't know what I can do to help him, I don't even know is he wants my help he gives me complicated signals I know he's an amazing singer I believe he writes his own songs.

"a little guide to Connor he has anger attacks hee got abused a lot by his boyfriends and family he's scared that will happen again so he trusts no one and is agressive to new people the more you are here the more he learns to accept you he blames mom for everything that happens while it mostly wasn't mom it was our father's girlfriend or mom's family and yes she was addicted to drugs and alcohol and yes she abused us really bad" Louis says "does your father know this about everything you just told me" he looks down.

"no I want to tell him so Connor can get help but I don't want him to hate me he stays my brother" Louis says "he already hates me so I can talk to his father but only about this anger attack part I know how it sucks to have anger attacks I have them myself" I look at Louis he asks you want him to hate you more? you wouldn't say that, I say he'll get over it and I don't care he would hate me more he needs some help and I got medicine for them so I got them under control.

and I know how to keep myself calm except if you say something about the people I care the most "you are a dance coach right? can Connor get medication too? how do you get them under control? I like you, you are the only one that didn't yell or abused me and Connor because we are messing around" Louis says "I am he can and depends on the person you guys are teenagers messing around is part of your age, were most people older than twenty?" he nods see that explains they don't get teenagers like I do.

maybe that's because i'm a teenager myself so I understand those little things I walk to Connor's room I knock on the door but get no respond I open the door but Connor isn't there I walk back down "Connor is gone, your father would kill me" I say "he doesn't have to know I'll call family and his friends after that we'll search at the places he likes to go" I can't lie again to his father but I can't let him know I lost Connor either and I know we have camera's in this house.

"he isn't at any family and his friends don't answer their phones Jayden and Nana are coming to help us they have a key to this place" Louis says I nod and the door opens a few minutes later Louis is getting dressed "hi I'm Maura Niall's mother that is Greg his brother and Gregs children Jayden and Theo and his wife Claire" I smile and say I'm Liam I work for Niall as babysitter, Louis gets down with his laptop saying maybe we can find his phone he has his location always on his phone is in his room.

"you'll check his favorite places I'll go to the dance studio that place is open twenty-four seven and I dance there myself so I have a key" I say "okay we'll meet at three back here" I give Louis and Maura my number so we can talk with each other after half an hour I arrive at the studio and open the door Luna sits in the lounge we teached the kids together so she knows all the names too I give her a hug and ask have you seen Connor? he ranaway and now we are trying to find him.

she says the door to studio six is locked and I lost the key, thank you Luna I open the door seeing Connor dancing he's pretty good on his own the boys were right he turns around with his knife "go away you asshole you want to tell my secret to my father I don't want to see you I'll get in trouble and you will too" Connor yells "put that knife down I only planned on telling them about your anger issues" I sit down he keeps yelling at me that I'm not telling the truth and I will tell all his secrets