I see you move so I do understand why you get attention

chapter ten

point of view Louis

"we found Connor he tried to stab me" Liam says "take him back to Niall's house we'll see you there" I feel bad for Connor I know what he is doing and why he wants to walk away I really want him to get better we get home and Liam tells us Connor wants to be alone for a few hours he's in his room, I walk upstairs to my own room getting a necklace I got from Sierra before she got in a coma I needed to give it to someone who means a lot to me.

I knock on Connor's door and open it he tried it already I grab his wrist to feel his pulse it's fucking weak "Nana, Greg, Connor tried it he has a weak pulse help me" I yell crying "Nana is calling an ambulance for Connor calm down Louis I'll call Niall" not calling Niall I yell No dad can't know about this, Greg says or we tell him or the hospital does you can choose I look at Connor I'm holding his hand I say call dad but don't let him ground us or fire Liam he nods.

we are in the hospital Liam needed to go home Nana and Greg are here dad walks in and a girl who looks like dad and Nana except she has blond hair she's pretty "what happend? is he okay? Lou that is Sierra my sister I thought you were dead" Niall says "he tried to kill himself after he ranaway and we found him they need to run a few tests on him they think he will survive she was in a coma" dad doesn't know I already know about Sierra I met her when I was sleeping at Jayden's.

Oli: is it true? is he okay? is he still alive?

Louis: what is true?

Mason: Connor tried to commit suicide

Louis: yes we are in the hospital he is alive we don't know we need to wait they think he will survive I want to cry

Ashley: it's going to be okay he is still alive

Oli: you can cry if you want I don't think you are coming tonight to play soccer

Louis: probably not

Mason: we'll see you keep us updated please

Louis: I will, can one of you inform Tristan, Brad and James or one of them?

Oli: on it.

Connor wakes up and a doctor walks in "where am I? what happend?" Connor asks "you tried to kill yourself you are in the hospital" he looks at dad and starts crying he takes my hand "he hasn't eaten anything in weeks and didn't drink anything in two days we need to keep him here in case something happens" he says "family can stay here if they want" Greg went home with Jayden and Theo, Nana is still here, Sierra says I can sleep on a room with him to watch him and the person who sleeps here.

Unknown: hey Louis, Tristan here I heard what happend with Con

Louis: hey Tristan yeah

Tristan: do you think we can over?

Louis: ofcourse he would love to see you guys

Tristan: are you sure?

Louis: Connor would love to talk to you guys

Tristan: I'm the only one who's coming over the other boys aren't in London

Louis: that is okay

Tristan: so I can come over

Louis: yes he's in room 403 he would love to see his boyfriend

Tristan: what? how do you know that?

Louis: Connor told me you seem like a nice guy.

"Tristan is coming to the hospital" I say "who?" we look at Niall "he gets medicine for his anger attacks" the doctor says "Tristan is my best friend" Tristan walks in saying the boys don't know yet and we'll keep it like that, Tristan and Connor start talking about what happend, Connor says Tris I have a song recorded you need to send the boys with my phone you can play it now he nods we hear some guitars and than his voice he sounds so broken I feel bad for him I look at the others dad walks away.

"what is his problem? that was beautiful Con, what is the name?" Sierra asks "I don't know thank you it isn't a cover it's a song I wrote called Naked, babe what do you think about it?" I look at Con he just told on himself, Tristan says it's pretty it sounds a little broken just like you are you need to keep doing this Brad, James and I will help you if you want that he nods Connor is in so much trouble if dad heard him say babe or Nana tells him about them but Nana wouldn't do that.

Louis: guys Connor is awake he needs to stay here for a couple days because he is dehydrated and has too less food in the last couple of days and he gets treated for his anger attacks

Oli: that is good news that he gets treated and is awake if you need something or someone to talk to just call me

Mason: dehydrated and he starved himself? how?

Louis: he always went to the bathroom after he ate or drank something

Oli: what do you feel mate?

Mason: you can't ask that Oliver

Louis: like shit and a bad brother.

"sorry I had a bussiness call" dad says "ofcourse bussiness is more important than us can't you just fucking for once leave the bussiness alone and listen to your fucking children" I get Connor's anger but still he knows how hard 'tries' to be there for us he doesn't always have time he never has time for me or Con only for Liv and Harry and Harry isn't even his child but whatever he wants, he says he isn't like his father but he kinda is he listens to part of his children but he is in the eye of the media nice.

"Connor language" dad says "if you don't have anything to say just keep your fucking mouth shut you asshole" I look at Connor I've never seen him like this and Tristan either Connor starts crying I hug him "Connor you can't say that to your father you're going to apologise right away" Nana says "I'm not going to apologise for telling the fucking truth he always wants us to be honest then I'm fucking honest and it still isn't fucking fine" Connor is good mad dad fucked up and believe me Con wouldn't forgive you for atleast a month.