Loving you is exhausting

Chapter 3

I wake up sobbing, it was just a dream I'm still pregnant, but I'm doing everything I can to keep my baby alive, even if I have to move away.

I love him, he's the best better than Derek's pathetic druggy ass, well I think he's on drugs. I've never seen behave like this before , he always showed me a smile and compassion even though he broke my heart

But I made the decision to, block him so I don't have to deal with him breaking my heart over and over again . It's exhausting having to fight for someone who I love, but not knowing if he loves me

I think I'm just gonna call out and move away until my pregnancy is over , I don't want to see his face at all.

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Derek looks at me " Your  pregnant, and it's suppose to be mines, how do I know it's not another man's baby ." He says

I looked down." Yea, he or she is your baby and I know this , because I've only slept with you. You don't have to be in their life , they have me and my friends." I say softly to him , I wanted to walk away

Derek sighs ." Im sorry but I can't be here for you or them. I have a wife who can't have kids, she needs me more than you two." He says

I just nodded my head, I really wanted him to be in the baby's life. People keep breaking my heart after it finally heals so I give up ." You rather have her, someone who cheated on you and broke up our relationship, than be with me and the baby. That's cool, don't bother to come back, we don't need you ." I say , I have a little bit of an attitude now

Derek was speechless, it looked like the raven headed man wanted to say something else to me but he stayed silent.

I turned away, walking back into my home . I just shut the door , I wanna scream and cry but I won't. I'm a strong independent woman and I don't need a man to support me

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Alex's point of view

We are in the lockers getting ready when Bailey walks in, I'm not talking to Cristina she hurt Meredith's feelings and Meredith is my person

The short brunette mushroom looking woman walked in " Where the fuck is Meredith, she's missed 2 days of work ." Bailey looks around for her , think she was hiding

Cristina has a grin on her face before speaking ." She's at home because mcdreamy got her pregnant." Cristina blurts out, and she snickers

I wanted to yelled at her but instead I slap my head as im truly ashamed of her

Bailey stops her search for a moment " SHES WHAT !" Bailey says she sound upset , she left and went to Meredith's house and I followed her. She's already hurting as it is so I stopped her