Played by Fated | Jeonghan

~• Part 58 •~

I gulped but sticking to my word, I ignore and avoid him like I always do. Without answering him, I quickly walked out and get to my room. I lean on the door and finally release a relieve breath but I guess it's not my day when the door suddenly got pushed open and made me stumble. Stupid me I forgot to lock it.

I turn at the door and saw him, holding the doorknob with eyes seeming mad? I'm not sure.

"are you avoiding me again?" he asked and I still choose to be silent. He then went further in and close the door behind him. There's only me and him in the house. Why the need to close the door? sheesh.

"Eunjin" he called and snapped me out.

"answer me." he demanded.

"yes" I whispered.

"what? what did you say?"

"I said yes. Yes I'm avoiding you." I answer loud and clear. He look taken aback but continue to ask.

"but why? why are you avoiding me? is it because of last n—"

"Yes! I'm avoiding you because of it." I cut him off without even looking at him.

"why?" he asked again. I scoffed. Is he serious?

"Why? You asked me why? Easy. To act like it never happened." I answered and I heard a sigh.

"Why would you do that?" he continue and of course it made me pissed. Like how can he asked that?

"You really asked me why I would do that when you're the one who keep telling me to always do that everytime??"

"that's not wh—"

"you're going to say that's not what you mean? but isn't that what you really mean? Listen here, President Yoon, I am not a doll, I am not a robot or any things like that for you to use and throw it away the next day or any day you want."

"eun.."

"I'm not done yet! You keep doing confusing things to me. Like..like you like me for real but then dump me the next day and repeat it again just when you like. Just because I have a feelings for you, doesnt mean you can treat me this way!"

"So you admit you still have feelings for me?"

"It..it doesn't matter but you can't play me. It hurts." I said while a tears accidentally slip out from my eyes. Why I am such a crybaby when it come to him.

I heard he sighed again before he speak.

"I don't know what happened or what's wrong with me. Eun, you believe it or not, I didnt mean everything I said to you. It was just...just it's hard for me too. One seconds, I feel like its right but then another one seconds I feel like its wrong." he said and made me look at him.

"what do you mean?" I asked.

"It's because I love you. It feels right because I love you but it feels wrong because I've hurt you." he then went and hold both my hands together with him.

"To be honest, it's all a lie when I told you to forget everything. I keep remember everything that happened too and I honestly afraid that I would hurt or scared you because Eunjin, trust me, I'm trying my damn best to control myself around you eventhough I tried to push you away." he said moving closer and slowly circle my waist.

I removed his hands and walk to the window.

"You can't do this President Yoon. You'd say one thing and then do the other. You can't. I have a feelings. I'm a human but you make me feel like you used me just for your need and thrown me when you don't. I felt useless when it's not even my fault!" I can sense him moving behind me.