Words of madness.

In the lonely hour.

I don't miss you, I don't need you.
But I miss having someone to love and hold.
If you knew how hard it was to make it all look so easy. Holding on to things I've never told.
Lost a bit at night left to lay down.
No one at my side.
I'm happy, but alone all at once.
Don't read me wrong, I don't want you back that's all said and done.
I'm not living a lie, but I am lying to myself.
Feels like another story sitting on a dusty shelf.
I want to be alone, but not feeling alone.
Rolled over and realized no one was sleeping next to me.
Took a shower and knew no one was watching T.V.
Go out and live it up, come home and listen to the silence of I don't know what.
Need strangers to feel alive.
Craving affection, wanting to be loved, but no need to be in love.
Want to feel something, but don't want to be apart of something.
Can't tell you what I feel, cuz I dot know what's real.
I fall back down.
I want to feel loved, don't want to be in love.
Is it crazy?
I'm on the verge of no return from this, just want to be loved and feel like its all okay. I need affection all need it all the time, I'm needy like that.
Drunk off of strangers and life, I ain't been myself somethings, wrong.
I feel alone again ,have to suffer through the pain, need to be loved can't give any love
In this lonely hour.