Drugs Are For Losers. Do Alcohol Instead!

Ch- 26 Uncertainty in the void

[Arlo]

"John. Are you ok?"

My eyes widen a bit

Is he really asking me that. after everything.

Of all fucking people..why would this piece of shit who does nothing but ruin my life..

Hatred builds deep inside my stomach

Ding!

[Arlo]

"I'm worried."

I freeze in place, my phone lowering

Hes..What?

Thats.. that's a lie. Why would he be worried after all the things we've done to each other? I threatened him, took his crown.. beat his ass..so..why?

I feel water build up Im my eyes. The very thing I had been fighting ever since that day, I cant cry. Its weak. If Im weak..how will I..face her?

...

Would she even want to face me?

Everything is gone. She's gone, who else do I have now?

What do I do now?

I cant do anything

I CANT DO ANYTHING..

should I just---

Ding!

My eyes dart over to my phone as the hands on my face slowly retract

The same feeling possesses me once again, no matter how my will struggles against it  I cant seem to get a grip on my conscious

Hahaha.. I've lost it haven't I?

Why do I keep going back...

Why is it always him?

 my fingers move and wrap around the lightly illuminated device

1%

[Arlo]

"Please, Be safe and don't do anything dangerous"

Arlo is typing..

...

[Arlo]

"I care"

I feel my throat hitch, as if something was stuck.. jammed inside of it

"Haa..he always..hic--uegh..knows..what to say to get under my..--hic..skin.." My voice trembles as I cry into the phone, forehead nuzzling the light, probably touching something on the screen but I couldn't care less

"Asshole"

My phone powers off as tears stream down my already sore face

The roaring wind and rain outside my window drowning out my quiet sobs and lighting the darkness that envelops my room

.

.

My cries die out slowly with the rain

its drizzling slowly, the moon is still high in the sky

Its hot

My legs move to the side of the bed, touching the floor after only god knows how long

Its too hot

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Arlos POV

"Seraphina cares|"