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"Hey Bon" Kate greets me as she joins me in the garden, sitting down at the bench with me, I smile at her
"You have been very pensive lately" She mused
"I do not think I am going to marry this season, didi" I say quietly as my smile fades
"What are you talking about?" I stayed silent
"You know you can tell me" She lays her head on my shoulder "You are my sister, who I love more than anything, I will never judge you, on anything"
"There is no one, who captures my attention enough to marry, and there is the matter of my dowry, and-" I swallow as tears stung my eyes "I fear I have done something entirely wrong, Kate" she stayed quiet, letting me continue
"I have feelings for someone, someone I should not feel anything for" I admit, blinking my eyes furiously "But I cannot help it" a tear dropped from my eye
"I cannot marry anyone while I have feelings for this person, it is wrong for me to do it, and I wish I did not feel how I feel, but every time we spent time together, and I got to know him more and more, I got to know the kind of person that he is, and with the way my heart started to race every time he touched me, I knew i fell in love" I sniffled "And it hurts" I cry out, sobs escaping me.
"I have been thinking since this morning, and I figured out how I felt. I know I can never be with him, not in a million years, especially since he is going to ask someone else to marry him. Something I know is going to break me when the time comes and it is all my fault. I knew from the start that he was not interested in me, but I ignored it and now, now I am going to pay the price" She lifted her head up from my shoulder and stared at me sadly
"I am breaking, didi" I sob loudly and hugged her tightly "I hate this, I hate this feeling, I hate him for making me feel this, I wish I never met him and got to know him!"
"Bon," Kate pulled away from our hug "He does not deserve your tears" I nodded, trying to stop crying, but I was not able to
"No one does, especially not Anthony Bridgerton" I stopped hugging her but she just pulled me in tighter "Do you think I have not seen how you look at him?" She smiled sadly
"Even before you figured out your feelings for him, I knew how you felt. You did after all say you wanted to marry him since the first day you met him" She wiped away my tears as I calmed down, sniffling "How about this,"
"What if, after Edwina is married, you leave to India with me, I was after all going to leave immediately after either of you married" She offers "You come with me, the less you see him, the more your feelings for him will subside, and you get to visit our home, once the season starts again, you come back for your second season, after all, there is no rush to get married, you are one and twenty and on your first season, you still have a few seasons to go before you are considered a spinster" I nodded
"Yes" I smiled feeling better
"Yeah?" Kate smiled happily
"I would like that very much" I nodded
"Great!" Kate stood up "Now, let us go take a walk around the garden, no need to think about that hideous man anymore" I laugh along with her as she pulled me up from the bench to start our walk
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It is the night of the ball. I was walking down the staircase along with my family and Lady Danbury. I look down to the dance floor. Couples dancing all over and families stood over to the side.
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Tales of a Heart ▪︎ Anthony Bridgerton
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