Coping

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"𝘞𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶? 𝘈𝘯𝘥 𝘪𝘮 𝘴𝘰 𝘴𝘰𝘳𝘳𝘺, 𝘐 𝘤𝘢𝘯𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘴𝘭𝘦𝘦𝘱 𝘐 𝘤𝘢𝘯𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘥𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘮 𝘵𝘰𝘯𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵,𝘪 𝘯𝘦𝘦𝘥 𝘴𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘣𝘰𝘥𝘺 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘢𝘭𝘸𝘢𝘺𝘴, 𝘴𝘪𝘹𝘵𝘩 𝘴𝘵𝘳𝘦𝘯𝘨𝘵𝘩 𝘥𝘢𝘳𝘬𝘯𝘦𝘴𝘴𝘤𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘴 𝘤𝘳𝘦𝘦𝘱𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘰𝘯 𝘴𝘰 𝘩𝘢𝘶𝘯𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘺𝘵𝘪𝘮𝘦, 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘢𝘴 𝘐 𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘳𝘦𝘥 𝘐 𝘤𝘰𝘶𝘯𝘵𝘦𝘥, 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘦𝘣𝘴 𝘧𝘳𝘰𝘮 𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘴𝘱𝘪𝘥𝘦𝘳𝘴,𝘤𝘢𝘵𝘤𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘴 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘦𝘢𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘪𝘳 𝘪𝘯𝘴𝘪𝘥𝘦𝘴,𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦𝘴 𝘢 𝘥𝘦𝘴𝘪𝘴𝘪𝘰𝘯 𝘵𝘰 𝘤𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘺𝘰𝘶,𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘳 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘷𝘰𝘪𝘤𝘦 𝘰𝘧 𝘵𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘴𝘰𝘯, 𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘤𝘰𝘮𝘦 𝘩𝘰𝘮𝘦 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘴𝘵𝘰𝘱 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘱𝘢𝘪𝘯 𝘵𝘰𝘯𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵? 𝘑𝘪𝘴𝘵 𝘴𝘵𝘰𝘱 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘱𝘢𝘪𝘯 𝘵𝘰𝘯𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵. 𝘋𝘰𝘯'𝘵 𝘸𝘢𝘴𝘵𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘵𝘪𝘮𝘦 𝘰𝘯 𝘮𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘢𝘭𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘥𝘺, 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘷𝘰𝘪𝘤𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘪𝘯𝘴𝘪𝘥𝘦 𝘮𝘺 𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘥 (𝘐 𝘮𝘪𝘴𝘴 𝘺𝘰𝘶) 𝘥𝘰𝘯'𝘵 𝘸𝘢𝘴𝘵𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘵𝘪𝘮𝘦 𝘰𝘯 𝘮𝘦, 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘢𝘭𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘥𝘺 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘷𝘰𝘪𝘤𝘦, 𝘪𝘯𝘴𝘪𝘥𝘦 𝘮𝘺 𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘥. (𝘐 𝘮𝘪𝘴𝘴 𝘺𝘰𝘶). "

Anyway, I don't feel like greasing it today.

I throw on a beanie and tuck all, (or at least most), Of my hair into it. I come out of the bathroom and sit next to Two-bit.
"ready for me to take you to hell kid? "

Excuse me?

"Huh? "

𝕋ℍ𝕀ℝ𝔻 ℙ𝔼ℝ𝕊𝕆ℕ ℙ𝕆𝕍 𝔽𝕆ℝ 𝕋ℍ𝔼 ℝ𝔼𝕊𝕋 𝕆𝔽 𝕋ℍ𝔼 𝕊𝕋𝕆ℝ𝕐!
"School! Not actual hell" Two-Bit chuckled at his joke,ponyboy faked a little ha before saying he was ready to go.

"Ponyboy?" Two bit waved his hand in front of ponyboys face with a Very noticeable expression of worry spread across his face.

Ponyboy looks up blankly, studying Two-bits facial features, his furrowed eyebrows, everything.

Everything that could be gone in a second.

"Are you okay ponyboy? "

"Yeah I'm Fine. " Ponyboy Grins through his Lie, Hoping that Two-Bit didn't notice the quick Analazation that was just done.

"You sure? "

"Yes of course Two-Bit! I'm fine! "

Ponyboy wasn't fine, he was scared of losing somebody else, maybe he was scared of even losing himself. He wanted to take in everything around him. He wanted to do what he forgot to do with Johnny. He wanted to remember Everybody's face perfectly.

"I was just saying- since everything that happend with Johnny last week I-"

"I'm fine" Ponyboy quickly cut Off Two-Bit, in a desperate attempt to save himself from the memories..

It was too late.

'𝓙𝓸𝓱𝓷𝓷𝔂, 𝓙𝓸𝓱𝓷𝓷𝔂'

'𝓘 𝓵𝓸𝓿𝓮𝓭 𝓱𝓲𝓶 𝓪 𝓵𝓸𝓽, 𝓶𝓪𝔂𝓫𝓮 𝓶𝓸𝓻𝓮 𝓽𝓱𝓮𝓷 𝓘 𝔀𝓪𝓼 𝓼𝓾𝓹𝓹𝓸𝓼𝓮𝓭 𝓽𝓸𝓸, 𝓶𝓪𝔂𝓫𝓮 𝓶𝓸𝓻𝓮 𝓽𝓱𝓮𝓷 𝓪 𝓯𝓻𝓲𝓮𝓷𝓭. '

'𝓣𝓱𝓮𝓷 𝓘 𝓱𝓪𝓭 𝓽𝓸 𝓰𝓸 𝓪𝓷𝓭 𝓴𝓲𝓵𝓵 𝓱𝓲𝓶, 𝔀𝓱𝔂 𝓭𝓲𝓭 𝓘 𝓱𝓪𝓿𝓮 𝓽𝓸 𝓻𝓾𝓲𝓷 𝓼𝓸𝓶𝓮𝓽𝓱𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓼𝓸 𝓹𝓮𝓻𝓯𝓮𝓬𝓽? '

'𝓘 𝓱𝓪𝓭 𝓽𝓸 𝓰𝓸 𝓫𝓮 𝓪 𝓫𝓪𝓫𝔂 𝓪𝓫𝓸𝓾𝓽 𝓪𝓻𝓻𝔂 𝓱𝓲𝓽𝓽𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓶𝓮, 𝓘 𝓬𝓸𝓾𝓵𝓭𝓷'𝓽 𝓱𝓪𝓿𝓮 𝓳𝓾𝓼𝓽 𝓽𝓪𝓴𝓮𝓷 𝓵𝓲𝓴𝓮 𝓪 𝓶𝓪𝓷? 𝓙𝓸𝓱𝓷𝓷𝔂 𝓰𝓸𝓽 𝓱𝓲𝓽 𝓪𝓵𝓵 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓽𝓲𝓶𝓮. 𝓨𝓸𝓾 𝓫𝓪𝓻𝓮𝓵𝔂 𝓮𝓿𝓮𝓻 𝓼𝓮𝓮 𝓱𝓲𝓶 𝓬𝓸𝓶𝓹𝓵𝓪𝓲𝓷𝓲𝓷𝓰. '

'𝓼𝓪𝔀... 𝓘 𝓶𝓮𝓪𝓷. '

'𝓘 𝔀𝓲𝓼𝓱 𝓘 𝓭𝓻𝓸𝔀𝓷'

'𝓘 𝓭𝓮𝓼𝓮𝓻𝓿𝓮 𝓽𝓸 𝓫𝓵𝓮𝓮𝓭 '

"It wasn't your fault. " Two bit had said out of the blue while staring intently at his feet.