It Doesn't Change A Thing.. ( 1D ) Editing

Back to normal ?!

New Chapter , sorry for the long wait .. xx

- Pia xx

I opened my eyes slightly and regretted it . A sharp light stabbed right into them and made my head hurt . God , this feels awfully familiar . Oh , yeah right , the drinks . Damn Niall and Josh ! I got out of my bed and ...- wait ! Why am I in my bed ? Wasn't I in hospital yeaterday ? . Well , anyways.

After getting ready and doing a little make up and my hair , I hopped downstairs and saw everybody in the livingroom , laughing and chatting. I smiled and walked forward , being noticed by everybody .As soon as I entered the room , One thing made my heart stop. Okay , maybe two or three . The first one being Harry without a shirt . This was like .... I don't even know , but I was sure I was eye raping him right now .

Right after that my eyes drifted away , and found something , that made my heart stung and ache . I tried to inhale as much oxygen as possible without anyone noticing how difficult it wasto me . There sitting in front of me , was my best Friend , with my ex-boyfriend , holding hands and cuddling. I tore my eyes away and closedmy eyes firnly for a second . I re-opened hem and put my mask back on.

I felt the muscels in my head tense and move under my skin , creating the asked for mask. I felt my head build up the walls and the tingling in my hands , declaring my anger issues to take the lead ,like always when I set up the mask. I let my eyes turn a dark shade of grey and my fists clench for the fraction of a second , before letting them hang losely by my waist . I smirked and looked into Angis and Ricks faces . Then I let my cold voice break the silence . ' This is so cute . ' I pointed at them and licked my dry lips . I tilted my head to the side and showed no emotion at all on my whole face . my body language fully under control , letting nothing slip out. Being the actress I am , I  skipped over to the sofa and sat next to Simon , who was currently cuddling my mother . Another great view.

' Okay , only because I came in , you don't have to ...' A song came to my mind ' Stop and stare ... I think I'm moving but I'm going nowhere ' I chuckled coldly and sighed . I got up again and walked towards the door . I looked over my shoulder in confused and slightly worried faces while saying ' I'm gone , you can be happy again ' I smiled a real smile . This was what I wanted the people around me to be , Happy ! Unlike me . Always cynically , sarcastic , weary of life , Sad and hurt inside . But I had found my way to get myself to enjoy the piece of crap people called life .

I fought . Simple as that . I could transform my feelings into anger , let simple thoughts make my blood boil and beat the living shit out of anyone .I didn't make differences between friends and enymys , when I fought , you better didn't get in my way , cause I wouldn't hesitate to take you down. The only thing , that was a tabu to me was my fighting club . Nobody of them would ever get hurt by me ....Unless they deserved it .

After running up to my room , I took deep breathes and changed into sweat pants and a sports bra , before taking ot my punching-bag from the wardrobe . I set it up and bandaged my fists . Clenching them on my sides , I closed my eyes , letting my thoughts rush through my head . My fathers death, My Mother leaving , putting my sister through , My mother coming back , Arrival of these bastards , Getting knocked out by drugs , Seeing Angi and Rick together , my Mother and Simon cuddling .

ENOUGH ! I let my eyes shoot open and started hitting the bag .

Left , right , left , right , left , right , left , right . Kick , kick , double kick , left , right , left , right , left , right , roundhouse kick .... and so I went on for about twenty minutes . ' Fucking bastards , Jerks , Idiots , Mother fucking popstars , Arrrghhh ! ' I shouted and dropped to the floor .I as breathing hard and shaking on my whole body , I was sweating all over and disgusted with myself . I got up , still shaking , when I heard a deep sigh behind me . I didn't dare to turn my head ,just stiffened and stared forward .

' You know , if you'd turn around , we could actually talk to you , right ? ' I think this was Liam . I just snorted and said though clenched teeth ' How long have you been standing there ? ' He said ' Long enough to know that you're to out powered to knock us all out . ' I growled and spun around , my eyes showing the fury burning inside of me , My teeth exposed . I felt like I was going to turn into one of this werewolves , if they existed ! But since they didn't I was sure I was looking like an animal with rabies , but oh well , who cares ?

' Thank you , so now we can talk ' He took a step forward , causing me to snarl and step one inti his direction and block his path ' Don't . Even . Even . Think . About . It ! ' I hissed and narrowed my eyes . He took the step back and looked at the others , I slammed the oor in their faces , trying to calm down , before I hurted somebody .  I stripped off my clothes and threw them in the dirty washing bag , then took a hot shower , which relaxed my muscles . Then I put on some shorts and a tank top with my undergearment .I was thirsty and decided to get myself something to drink . I opened the door and there they were again. Harold, Zayn , Louis , Liam and Niall . I smirked coldly at Niall and hissed ' Hello Niall ' Which made him jump back , just as I expected , so I slipped through the space between him and Liam and ran downstairs . Outside it was snowing - Oh shit ! We were captured in the house ! The snow was everywhere and there was no way out . Urgh ! I grabbed a waterbottle from the fridge and walked back upstairs , only to be grabbed by my arms and legs and pulled into my room . Someone closed my door and locked it , then Zayns face appeared above mine . I smirked . Big mistake boys .

I faked and surprised face , then a cry of pain , which made them let me go in a instant . I jumped on my feet and kicked zayn where-the-sun-doesn't-shine and punched Louis across the face . Harry was pushed back and hit the wall , while Liam was kneed in the stomach. Niall didn't even try to grab me . I stood in front of him and looked at him carefully and expectant. He didn't look like he was oing to attack me and he said ' could you come here please ? I won't try to keep you here . ' He looked sincere so I moved closer . He held his arms out and I looked at him , One brow raised . He just pulled me into him and circled my waist with his arms .

'Liar ' my head shouted 

'idiot he is trying to comfort you' my heart said

for this one time , I listened to my heart and sunk into his embrance . Letting my arms wind themselves around his back , I rested my head on his chest and breathed in shakily . His chin rested on the top of my head and I felt a smile form on my lips .I felt his chest vibrate when he asked

' Don't you think it is time to go back to normal again ? '