Things I've Never Done ✔

CHAPTER 16

"Accidently akong nabangga ng kotse ni Aaron." Nagmamalaking sambit nito. Kumunot ang noo ko nang ngumisi siya. 

'Di ka na nga makalakad ng maayos gan'yan pa inaasal mo.

"Okay? So, you're telling me that it's Aaron's fault?" Tanong ko, I slowly walked towards them and stopped one inch away from her. I could feel my blood boiling from anger as I get near her. But I have to stop myself because she is fucking injured.

"No, baby.. She was---" 

"Kasalanan naming dalawa. Ito kasi si Aaron eh, hindi ako sinabay. And of course, I love him so mu-- ahh!" That was when I lost my shit and grabbed her neck and pulled her closer to my face. 

"Baby.." 

"Ikaw lang ang may kasalanan d'yan sa pagka-lumpo mo. Idadamay mo pa si Aaron sa kalandian mong tangina ka. Hindi pa ba ito sapat na rason para layuan mo ang asawa ko?" Pinakita ko sa kaniya ang wedding ring namin ni Aaron at halos idikit ko na iyon sa mukha niya. "Habol ka nang habol sa taong wala nang pakiramdam para sayo, gano'n ka ba kasabik magkaroon ng taong tatapakan mo?" 

"L-let g-go..." Pilit niyang sinasambit habang ang dalawang kamay niya ay nakahawak sa kamay kong nakasakal sa kaniya, nalaglag na rin ang mga saklay niya. Pero bakit hindi ako nabibigatan sa katawan niya habang mahigpit akong nakasakal sa kaniya?

"Humanap ka ng ibang tao na handang magbulag-bulagan sa ugaling meron ka. Isa pang may gawin ka sa asawa ko..." I pulled her more closer to my face. "Hindi lang sakal ang aabutin mo." Binitawan ko siya at bumaling ng tingin kay Aaron. I held his wrist before pulling him with me with full force. 

"Baby, where are we going?" I stayed silent as I continued to pull him. Ang dami niyang tanong at sinasabi habang bumababa kami ng hagdan.

I don't fucking care if we used the stairs instead of the fucking elevator. Hindi ako nakakaramdam ng pagod kahit ilang steps na ng hagdanan ang binabaan namin. All I could feel was anger, sadness, and curiosity. I could feel my blood boil in anger.

"Baby, you're hurting me."

"Baby, answer me, please?"

"We should've used the elevator... Baby, I'm exhausted... Where are you taking me?.. Where are we going?... Your silence is killing me. I want to hear your voice. Answer me, baby, please?" Sunod-sunod na tanong at reklamo niya habang bumababa kami. I stayed silent and continued to pull him. Humigpit ang kapit ko sa pulsuhan niya nang marating namin ang parking lot. 

"Kyla, stop!" He snapped. I forcefully dragged him in front of me and looked at him in the eye. "Kanina pa ako nagsasalita, hindi ka sumasagot. What do you want to say---"

"Fuck you, that's what!" Sigaw ko. Umalingaw-ngaw ang boses ko sa parking lot. He was caught off-guard as I cursed him. I saw his mouth opened but he hesitated to speak. Parang sasabog ang dibdib ko sa halo-halong emosyon na kanina ko pa nararamdaman.

"Baby..." The moment he called me that was the moment my emotions exploded. My tears started to fall from my eyes like a fucking faucet as I stare at him. Parang may sumasakal sa puso ko habang nakatingin sa kaniya. "Hey.."

"I was expecting you to be there yesterday. Everyone kept asking me where you were. I-i covered you up and said you're gonna be late kasi may trabaho ka pang dapat asikasuhin. And I believed that! Naniwala ako sa sarili ko na malalate ka lang, na may trabaho ka lang, na may emergency meeting ka lang. Tapos dahil pala sa punyetang babaeng 'yon kaya ka wala?! Dahil lang sa pagiging lampa niya kaya ka wala?! Explain your side, Aaron. Make me believe you.. make me forgive you." My eyes were blurry because of the god damned tears that keeps falling. I couldn't see his face clearly but I could see that he is staring at me.

"T-There was an emergency meeting.. with Kimberly accompanying me." Parang mas lalong sinakal ang puso ko dahil sa sinabi niya. Nag-iwas ako ng tingin dahil parang hindi ko masisikmura lahat ng sasabihin niya.

"Putangina.." I whispered as my tears continued to fall.

"Baby, don't get me wro---" He tried to walk near me.

"Stay where the fuck you are!" I stepped back as he tried to hold me. I saw him jump a little because I screamed. 

I feel so sorry right now. I want to embrace him, I want to hold him. But his reasons are fucking me, it's stopping me.

"Baby..." I looked at him like I would eat him alive. He sighed before continuing to speak. "I told her to stay away from me.. I kept telling her to get away from me, don't approach me, but she insisted and--"

"And you let her?" Putol ko sa sasabihin niya. Sumisikip ang dibdib ko, iniisip ko pa lang na hinayaan lang niya na sundan-sundan siya ni Kimberly.

"No. I was about to leave her, but I never expected that she would follow me. I locked my car door para hindi siya makapasok, but she blocked my driveway. And, that was when I accidently hit her and... I-I was gonna leave her there wounded.. but many people saw what happened." I sucked my own breath as I heard what he just said.

Leave her there... wounded?

An evil laugh escaped my mouth. I even lost my own balance. He quickly joined me on the dirty floor, repeating the same words over and over again as I laugh so hard.

"Baby.. what's wrong? Did I say something funny?" I stood up, not giving a fuck about his arms that's holding me. I wiped my tears, and smiled at him.

"Sorry. You were gonna leave her there? Yes, makes sense, I'm forgiving you about that. But better? Leave her there wounded?" I chuckled at him before pulling him into a hug.

"W-wha--" 

"It's insane. Look, I'm sorry for cussing at you and shouting. But I did listen to you in the first place so I'm not at fault." 

I couldn't express more of my words about forgiving him, even saying sorry to him. My whole body became numb as we hold each other. 

Fuck.. what did I do earlier?

"I understand, and I'm sorry for what I did." He said many things about him making it up to me. But I couldn't understand it clearly.

I might say that I forgave him already, but the pain he caused wasn't fine and resolve at all. Madali lang magpatawad, pero hindi madaling makalimutan 'yong kasalanang ginawa nila sayo.