i let you hurt me. i let you use me. i let you disrespect me. you called yourself a man. you are not. you were not. this was years ago. i should be over it by now, but you don't understand. healing takes time.
two years. its been two years since you've put your hands on me. two years since you took advantage of me. i was a child. you were a child. you broke me. i loved you. you claimed you loved me. i didn't believe it for a second. and neither did you. im not sure why i still think of you every day. i hope you're well. i only want the best for you. but id like it if you stayed away from me. i still see you sometimes. i get nervous. my heart stopped once. you're toxic with that beautiful brown skin, perfect teeth and charming personality. i truly despise you. i don't know how i missed the warning signs or ignored the vibrant red flags. i was oblivious, blinded by an untrue teenage love affair. you lied to me.
its okay i've been lied to before.
-i don't blame myself anymore 09.27.17
JE LEEST
Stepping out of the River
Avontuurshort stories + poems written thru the years 2017 - now ❤️ soon to be a published book ✨ cant go back, will never go back. - physically simple vacation to the past by words. - mentally 🏆#175 - spiritual 🏆#77 - breathe 🏆#175 beingiove
