Flashback |Yeongyu/Beomjun|

Twelve

Beomgyu: Soobin?

Soobin: Yeah? Are you okay? You kind of just disappeared the other night

Beomgyu: Yeah, more or less. Sorry about that though, but... can we talk?

Soobin: Sure

Beomgyu: Meet me at my place in fifteen?

Soobin: Will do

Beomgyu pat Mochi on the head once more. "I'm screwed."

*Beomgyu's pov (first person)*

I was slightly surprised when there was a knock on my door just minutes later. Walking to the door and opening it, I stared in open mouth shock.

"Yeonjun? What are you doing here?!" I whisper-hissed, like there was actually someone around who was eavesdropping.

"I'm not giving up." Yeonjun said stubbornly. I sighed.

"How the hell did you even know where I live?" I demanded. "Actually- don't answer that." I said as he opened his mouth.

"Look, any other day, I might let you in, but now really, really isn't a good time." I said, peeking my head out the door and looking left and right. 

"Please? Just give me a couple minutes." Yeonjun said, looking down. I sighed.

"Fine. Five minutes. No more. No less. Come in." I said, moving out of the way to let him through, and praying Soobin wasn't early.

"Aw, hi, little guy." Yeonjun said as Mochi stalked over to greet him. He picked him up and held his face close to his own. "I don't suppose you can give me tips on how to make Beomgyu forgive me, huh?" Yeonjun whispered.

I shook my head slightly. This side of Yeonjun was just so... different. When I met him, he was easily annoyed, and angry. I gently grabbed Mochi from him.

"Remember, you only have five minutes." I said, patting Mochi on the head. Yeonjun nodded and sighed.

"I'm really, really sorry. More then you'll ever know. If I was you, I wouldn't ever forgive myself, but... didn't you ask me for a chance? Now that's what I'm asking."

I opened my mouth but he continued.

"I'd be lying if I said I didn't enjoy kissing you, because I did. Like I said before, I'm probably being selfish because I know the risks, but... aren't I allowed to be a little selfish?" Yeonjun said, taking a couple steps toward me. I lowered my eyes to the ground.

"Yes, but... I just want to move on from this. You're making this hard, though." I mumbled. Yeonjun smiled sadly.

"I guess you aren't the only one who can be stubborn, huh?"

I couldn't stop myself from smiling slightly at his words.

"I wish I could make myself forget this, for you. But I think about it constantly. You're too damn hard to forget. I'll never stop wishing I never said anything about you. I don't like when you're upset. It makes me upset. But... you're happiness is my happiness."

Yeonjun had taken a couple more steps closer, and I found it was hard to breathe. He was so close... I just-

"Beomgyu? You're door was unlocked so- oh." Soobin said as he walked in, but he caught sight of Yeonjun. 

I hurriedly took a couple steps away.

"So this is why you said it wasn't a good time for me to be here." Yeonjun noted, eyeing Soobin slightly.

"Don't worry, he was just leaving." I quickly assured Soobin, who stood there awkwardly. Yeonjun shrugged.

"I can wait."

I mentally groaned. "Yeonjun-"

"It's okay, love. I don't mind if he stays." Soobin cut in. I sighed. I felt like I would die on the spot.

"Fine." I said, though it came out sounding more like a groan. "Just- you know, give us some space?" I said, looking at Yeonjun, who nodded.

"Sure."

I patted the spot next to me on the bed and Soobin sat down.

"So, uh..." I glanced behind me to make sure Yeonjun wasn't paying us any attention. "I'll just be honest... Soobin, you're a really, really awesome guy, and you make me happy, and you're funny, and smart, and one of my best friends... but the thing is... see... I-"

"You like Yeonjun?" Soobin asked, cutting in. I was slightly shocked, but I swallowed the lump in my throat and nodded, glancing behind me.

"I'm so, so, so sorry, like you don't know how sorry I am. Like-"

"Beomgyu, it's okay." Soobin said gently. "I'd be lying if I said I wasn't a bit hurt, but deep down... I also kind of knew it. I guess I just didn't want to believe it."

I sighed. "But it's not okay."

"It is. Beomgyu, the thing is, you've been one of my best friends for so long, I can't hate you. My feelings will eventually go away, but I realized... if I truly loved you, I would let you go so you can be happy."

My eyes blurred slightly. "Really? You don't hate me?"

Soobin shook his head with a sad smile. "No. I don't."

I pulled Soobin and hugged him tightly.

Soobin left a couple minutes later, but I couldn't help noticing Yeonjun was smiling.

"You heard everything, didn't you?" I asked through a sigh, and Yeonjun nodded. "At least try not to look so happy."

"Sorry, but I can't help it."

"I feel bad about breaking up with Soobin, but you're happy about it." I shook my head and picked up Mochi again.

"Well... I guess I feel a bit bad for him, but I don't exactly enjoy sharing what's mine." Yeonjun said simply with a shrug. I groaned.

"I'm not yours."

"But you like me. So there's hope."

I blushed from embarrassment. "Oh my god, just scat." I groaned. "I want to be alone."

"Alright. But just know that I'm only going to try harder now." Yeonjun said as he made his way to the door. I opened it and he stepped out.

"Don't get too hopeful." I grumbled. "You still have a lot of apologizing and begging to do."

And with that, I closed the door.

(Poor Soobin 🙁 he just got tied up in everything.

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