Define love. || Young Leonardo Dicaprio

Chapter 47

"No Leo what are you doing?! I've just woken up I look horrific"

"Non sense" I immediately covered my face with my hands only for Leo to take them away. I couldn't stop laughing as I tried to grab the camera off him. He took the photo and plopped himself next to me as he waited for the picture to develop. I rested my head on his shoulder as the picture peeked through

"See beautiful" he chuckled as he waved the picture in front of my face. I stood up out of bed and rolled my eyes

"Let's go do something then" I hummed as I walked away

All day we spent the day with each. I said my goodbyes to James and some of the crew I met. We were now at the airport waiting for the plane to arrive for me to depart. I was exhausted but I guess it meant I can sleep on the plane to New York. I sat in my seat fidgeting with my necklace as I patiently waited for my gate to open. I was really anxious. Not for the flight, not to get back to New York, I was anxious to know if Leo and I would be able to do the long distance. We only made it official yesterday but we were only really close for the past week. I guess I was just worried we'd be distant again, he make all the promises in the world but it only takes one thing to go wrong for it to all come crashing down

"You alright?" I felt his hand placed on my knee to stop it from bouncing. I managed to force a smile

"Yeah" but I knew he looked straight through me

"I really loved spending time with you" I nodded as I weakly smiled unable to say a word, worried it'd come out in a cry instead. Leo scanned my face and pulled me into a hug. That very gesture seeming to calm me down as I took deep breaths

"You know I finish up on my filming in a months time and you head back to LA in a month too right?"

"So much can happen in a month though Leo"

"You know I'm crazy for you, I wouldn't ask you to be my girlfriend if I weren't"

"I know it's just feels so surreal, I feel like somethings get good and then we get separated and then that's when everything goes downhill again"

"You got to try not think about it like that Kenna, we'll call each other everyday ok, this time I mean it" he smiled causing me to have a little faith. We sat there taking in each others embrace until we heard the speaker call out for my flight. We stood up and gave each other the tightest hug just standing there as people rushed towards the gate

"Have a safe flight ok and call me when you land"

"I will"

We locked eyes for a second and he leaned down to give me a long sensual kiss.

"I love you" he said causing my heart to race

"I-" the gate number got called again. But I couldn't find the words to complete my sentence

"I have to go, I'll call you as soon as I land" Leo looked a bit taken back that I didn't say I love you back to him. He just nodded slightly and forced a smile

"I'll be waiting" I giggled and gave him a kiss on the cheek. Then I turned around and rushed off. Mentally slapping myself due to not saying I loved him back.

As I sat in my seat during the flight I couldn't help but get stuck in thought when I stared out to the clouds. I've been feeling like my head was stuck in the clouds all week. Im happy we were officially calling each other boyfriend and girlfriend. And I do love him. So why couldn't I muster up the courage? Perhaps it was all in my head, the fear of me getting hurt once again, the worries I got rushing through my mind that if I said it back and something goes wrong in our relationship then it wouldn't be as bad.

I arrived back in New York. Unfortunately no longer feeling the warmth I felt in Baja. I let out a sigh as I walked to Tobey's car and hopped in

"Aaaah well isn't this the famous Leonardo DiCaprio girlfriend" he cheekily said

"New travels quick doesn't it" I playfully punched him in the arm as he started to drive back to the apartment

"Well he is my best friend, he tells me everything"

"Right so you would know about the whole pr relationship with Kristen then?" I raised an eyebrow at him

"Actually no...I'm really offended he didn't tell me that" he faked a hurt expression and touched his chest "although it makes sense, they seemed so distant even though they were right next to each other....so I'm assuming you sorted stuff out"

"Hey don't act like you don't already know" I scrunched my nose at him

"Your right your right" he nodded while laughing

"So what did you're best friend tell you" I poked him

"Oh just how his week went, how you guys love each other, the date nothing different really although I've gotta ask why didn't you say you loved him back" my eyes widened at his words. That happened exactly 8hrs ago and they've already spoken about this "hey you don't have to tell me, it's none of my business I just have a guy a billion miles away stressing over something small that's all" he shrugged

"I don't know why I didn't go through with saying it to be honest"

"Do you love him? Sorry I've just got to ask"

"I think I do...wait yes I do, you know I haven't really said it to anyone before, I haven't said it to my own dad after mum passed away so"

"It's cool, I guess you'll say it when you're ready, but if you're so sure then you shouldn't hold back" I nodded in shock that Tobey was giving me such advice, I don't think he's ever been inlove before

We were now back at the apartment. I was sprawled across my bed. It was the early hours of the morning, I just didn't see the point of trying to sleep. I should probably call Leo, he should be up now considering he was 2 hours ahead. I pressed his contact and hit call but not even the first ring he answered

"Hey Kenna"

"Hey, I'm so sorry I didn't call sooner I just didn't want to wake you up" I smiled, immediately feeling better to the sound of his voice

"No biggie, I couldn't sleep all night" I thought of what tobey said in the car earlier, how leo was stressed about whether or not I actually loved me

"Any reason?" I questioned, I wonder if he'll tell me

"Oh no reason..." I bit my lip, I felt bad that he was feeling this way "just couldn't wait for you to call me"

"I saw you last night" I giggled

"I know but now I won't see you for another month"

"I know what you mean, we finally get together and now won't be seeing each other for a month, why do we do it to ourselves" I giggled

"I just hope it goes fucking quick"

"It will.... Hey Leo?"

"Yes?"

"I love you" I let out. I can just feel the smile on the other side of the phone making me feel so much comfort that he was no longer worried

"I love you too... I was kinda wondering why you didn't say it back earlier, got me worried you didn't feel the same" he chuckled

"Sorry I just started to over think everything, but I do love you ok"

"No need to apologise...what brought you to say it though?"

"Tobey kind of told me" I giggled

"Ofcourse he did"

"Yep the man himself"

"I think I'm going to have to stop telling him things, he might let some things slip while you're living with him" we laughed and chatted for hours. Everything felt like it was right where it is. I just prayed the month went by quick so we could see each other again