A new life..

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- Kaili ..

"ma what's wrong with you" I asked my mother because she was trippin and all I wanted to do was come over here and bring her grand baby to see her.

my mother turned into a crackhead when my father got locked up.

my father was one of the biggest drug lords and he was so deep into the streets that he barely had time to be around his family and when he was around he didn't do anything but beat on my mother .

but my mother loved him oh so much .. he almost killed her one time.

my dad was only a father financially. I always had everything.. clothes, shoes, things for my room, and a new hair do every 2 weeks but the correct love from him and that's what made my love fade for him.

"your what's wrong with me kai, why can't you just leave and take that baby with you" she said yelling.

"ma you don't mean that" I said narrowing my eyes.

"WHAT DONT YOU GET ? you come in here with that baby that nobody wants, she doesn't even have a father and you try to call her my granddaughter? HA that is not mine" she said pointing back and forth to me and legacy .

"mama please don't talk like that in front of my child" i said getting angry that's she had some nerve to talk about my baby in front of her like that.

I always tried to not put my hands on my mother but she always pushed me to where I'm almost there.

she scoffed before lighting a cigarette.

i put legacy down and told her to go watch her tablet in the living room.

"you know your dad would be really disappointed .. your 22 with a child" she said before blowing the smoke.

"THAT IS NOT MY FATHER MAMA .. I DONT CARE WHAT HE WOULD THINK .. HE WASNT HERE TAKING CARE OF ME TO PREVENT THIS ... and obviously neither were you when he went to jail.. I've been taking care of myself since I was 12 years old, TWELVE MAMA.... I am 22 and successful right now.. I did this all by myself.. taught myself everything I know despite me having a child, and she's very much taken care of and educated at the age of 2" I said with tears in my eyes.

"little girl if you say that is not your father again? oh so help me you will be in the hospital, your father provided everything you and me have and still paying off everything while he's in jail" she said putting the cigarette down.

"no mama ... you fail to realize he provided me with materalistic things until I was 15 where I start getting things on my own and declining everything he tried to give me, and you ??? what did he ever provide you?? beatings every nig-"

she cut me off slapping me right across my face.

"don't you ever speak to me like that, he never hurt me" she said pointing to me.

I scoffed shaking my head.

"you never got enough... have a nice life mama" I said before turning around with tears in my eyes going to get legacy then walking out the house getting in my car.

"NEVER COME BACK WITH THAT CHILD DISRESPECTING ME IN MY HOUSE" my mama yelled out the front door before I pulled off .

i pulled off breaking down in tears.

my mama hurt me.. she's been hurting me since I was 12, it's like she stop caring every since my "father" gotten locked up.

she was everything to me, and everytime my "father" would beat her I would cry with her by her side hugging her telling her everything would be ok no matter how young I was.