Define love. || Young Leonardo Dicaprio

Chapter 19

"Why would you go out of your way to pick up other peoples rubbish?" I curiously asked

"It's not good for the environment, it can seriously hurt animals aswell" I softly smiled at his remark. I never knew he was this passionate about the environment. It explains why he fought with me a month back about the rubbish around the house after I threw the party.

"I never knew you were this passionate about the environment Leo" I said causing him the chuckle

"Well we only have one earth, any kind of input is one step ahead into preserving our planet. Might not seem that much but trust me we can all do our bit to help out" he brought up the box he was holding. "Hence why I try to make it out here most mornings to do this" I smiled warmly.

"Well if I help out will it make a difference" he smirked making my heart flutter

"Any help would make a difference" we made our way around the beach cleaning up as much as we could. We goofed around for a little bit. Currently Leo had a piece of seaweed in his hand and was chasing me up the beach.

"I swear to god DiCaprio" I yelled out, sprinting as fast as I could to avoid contact from the seaweed. All of sudden I got picked up and thrown over Leo's shoulder

"LEO NO, PLEASE ITS FREEZING" he stepped into the water and stopped

"LEO PUT ME DOWN" I started kicking but laughing in the process.

"If you say so"

"NO LEO" he turned around and walked up onto the beach and softly put me down. We were again centimetres away from each. We both gazed at each softly. I was so mesmerised by his blue eyes that glistened in the sun, watching his pupils dilate. The wind picked up causing a strand of my hair to fly in front of my face and in an instant he picked up his hand and tucked the strand behind my ears. I blushed at the gesture, barely being able to look him straight in the eyes. He caressed my cheek for a little bit. I couldn't help but lean into his hand as it gave me a sense of comfort.

"You're beautiful you know that right?" he softly said seeming to making me entranced by his voice.

I lightly shook my head. Looking anywhere but his eyes. "I'm not" I lowly whispered but loud enough for him to hear. He moved his hand so it was now under my chin making me look up to make eye contact again. Making my heartbeat beat faster by the minute

"You are... I wouldn't lie about that" he softly said with a small smile. Our eyes were dancing with each other again. I couldn't help but take quick glances of his lips, seeing he was doing the same. He leaned down making me start to stand on my toes. We were literally so so so close now all he had to do was lean in that little fraction. My mind was saying no but my heart was saying otherwise. I could softly feel Leo's breath along my lips but I couldn't do it. My mind won. I put my hand to his chest and pulled away

"I'm sorry I- I can't do this I shouldn't be here" I stammered. I watched as his face dropped and how his eyes changed with defeat.

"It's cool" he mumbled

"I should go... I need to go" and with that I ran off. I didn't even think to look back.

It just proves two things. One being that I do indeed have feelings for Leo again but two being that I will need to try avoid him at all costs. I was doing so well but that one interaction broke the progress. I just don't think I could possibly pursue anything with Leo because I know I'll end up hurting myself or even worse him.

I managed to run all the way to mine and Jesse's main breakfast spot which was just a cafe across the road from our hotel. I spotted him and sat down pulling a glass to our myself some water

"Woah hello, where were you? I was about to leave" he said laughing

"I-" should I tell him I saw Leo?

I looked across the road to see Leo slowly making his way into the hotel. Jesse talking all kinds of nonsense only I wasn't paying attention. Jesse followed my gaze and turned around to see what I was looking at. Good thing at this point Leo was no where to be seen but I was just so stuck in my own thoughts to break the gaze. Jesse brought his hand up and waved it in front of my face pulling me out of my thoughts

"You ok? You look like you've just seen a ghost" I nodded slowly

"Ok well as I was saying, I finally have a scene with you today"

"Oh you do?" What scene were we filming today?

"Yeah the wedding scene" oh no. Juliet and Romeo is getting eloped. Which means it'll be our first kiss scene. I stood up abruptly. Jesse doing the same

"You ok McKenna? You seem really off" he questioned as he started to follow me as I walked off.

"Yeah I'm fine I guess the run just got to me" I mumbled. I was hoping not having to see Leo for another couple of days to give me time to sort out whatever the heck I was feeling towards him and the almost kiss that happened earlier but no I'm shooting a wedding scene with HIM and now having to kiss HIM after this morning.

Jesse and I were standing in the elevator now. I was staring at the blank wall. I knew Jesses eyes were on me but I couldn't find the urge to look at him. I felt a hand slide under my chin. Forcing me to look at him. He smiled. I didn't feel anything. My heart sunk knowing that i didn't have the same feelings towards Jesse as I did for Leo.

He leaned in slowly. His eyes already close. Was he going to kiss me? Should I push him away. I widened my eyes as his lips already met with mine. Only I was frozen. It was short lived but I couldn't process it why I couldn't kiss back.

"Sorry I just wanted to kiss you before I had to watch you and Leo kiss" he looked away but I still nodded. Why would he feel the need to kiss me before Leo? I touched my lips still in confusion. If anything, him kissing me confirmed that I did not feel the same way for him as I did for Leo. I didn't feel sparks, I didn't feel nervous.... I felt... nothing. Which only made it harder for me to ignore Leo