Forbidden Love

Chapther 17

I watched her as she opened the jar and took the spoon " did you make this ?" she suddenly asked and i schook my head " no i had it made for you " i couldnt tell her i made it cuz she would probobly trow it away then,  she nodded and took a spoon full of dessert and placed it in her mouth " its really good" she said and took more, i watched her with horror in my eyes, what have i done? shes going to die because of me, i took a deep breath and stood up " it was nice seeing you Aunt.." i said and she hugged me and i hugged her back since this was our last hug and went home. On my way home i tought about what i did and it was the right thing, she took my mother and brother for me so i shall take away her life so she dont make any more mistakes, i nodded to my self and i arrived home, i went straight to my room and there was note waiting for me on my dest, i took it and opened it ...

" dear Hieren,

you know im not like my mother and i would never do anything to hurt you..i loved Mehmed and im just as sad as you that he died but u dare to blame his death on me as well as my mother and Aunt. I want to talk to you about this cuz i think you are doing big mistake, withouth having me by your side no one will defend your siblings and you. 

Mustafa 

" 

i crushed letter into a paperbowl and trow it in fire, then i took off all my jewlery  and sat on bed,  " this is so messed up" i said to myself. I decided to go to Haman to calm myself down a bit, i sat on marbel bench (in haman) and wash myself while eating grapes, i then just sat there and enjoy the warmness of the room. I got so deep in my thought that i started thinking about Musta and his letter, should i trust him?  what if his mother told him to write that..what if this whole time he was just pretending to be nice to me...i shook the thoughts out of my head and decided that that was enough haman for today . I went back to my chamber and wore my nigh dress and blow all the candles in the room so its dark, as i layed in my bed i just started at the dark celling " Hieren" i wide open my eyes " whos there!?" i looked around the room and saw no one so i layed back down "ur just imagining things.." with that said i fell asleep.  As i was sleeping somone came into my chamber and closed the door, i didnt bother waking up cuz its probbobly made anyway, but then i felt somone laying down beside me and caress my face..i opened my eyes and saw Mustafa laying next to me " what are u doing here?" i asked and he just smiled and kissed me, i kissed him back, we made out for some time befor eit started getting hotter and hotter and suddely my dress was off along with his shirt. Then i woke up :) " omg" i felt my face and it was warm "what is wring with me" i said to my self and and layed back down "how can i have this kinds of dreams " i whispered to myself feeling very bad for dreaming about and tried going back to sleep.

The next morning i woke up later than usual and skipped breakfast,  i put on a brand new dress that maids made for me and went to my father chamber, when i got there gurd stopped me " Majesty is not here Sultana" "well where is he?" "he is Hatice Sultana palace" i wide opened my eyes "i forgot about that" i whispered to myself and walked away. I told maid to get the carrige ready for me and we went to Hatice palace, we got there and i walked in as calm as possible, I heard my dad saying my aunts name over and over again so i ran upstairs and to the tarace and there i saw my dad holding my dead aunt Hatice in his arms, I couldnt belive she really died " dad.." i said softly and he turned to me " Hieren..Hatice is-" i nodded " i know dad..she told me yesterday that she wants to be with Ibrahim again and that the world is hurting her too much.." i lied but i wanted my father to feel better, my father started crying and i went over to him and hugged him.

Everyone was at Hatices funeral, even Mustafa and Mahidevran came and everyone cried..even i cried but this way she cant to any more harm.  We were all having after funeral lunch and i noticed Mustafa looking at me so I looked back and he mentioned for me to go out of the room with him but i schook my head and continued eating but he then got up "father id like to go to tarace to get some fresh air, Hieren? would u like to come with me?" he asked me " no im hungry" i said before taking sip of my drink " Hieren go i need to speak with others anyway" my father said harshly and i got up " fine" i said before walking out of the chamber with Mustafa following behind me. We come to the tarace "what do u need" i asked as i looked at the view, maybe i shouldnt be so harsh to him...but after the dream I had...I dont want to make any wrong moves "did u get my latter?" he asked "what latter" i tried sounding confused "i wrote u a latter days ago " he walked coser " i didnt get any latter, why? was it important?" I acted clueless and he harshly turned me to face him " Hieren stop playing with me" he said trought gritten teeth " im not playing with you, I  really dont know what ur talking about"  I bit my lip after i said and he just let go of me and i turned back to look at the view to hide my desire to kiss him " In the latter i asked you to think about-" he kept talking and  talking but i didnt hear a word he said i was too deep in my thoughts, I was thinking about the dream that i had, i just want to turn around and kiss him  but I cant "HIEREN" he suddenly yelled and i jumbed a bit when he did since he scared me " are u even listening to me?!" he asked angry , i gulped " yeah i am " i said " turn around " i turned around and faced him, I then walked closer to him and took his hand in mine, he looked confused but I didnt care..I then pecked his lips " Hieren...litearly anyone here can see us please dont do that in open space" i chunckled softly " i dont care Mustafa, I love you and i want everyone to see it " why am i making sudden confecions?  did i drank a bit of poison i gave to Hatice? He then backed me up against the wall and i wrapped my arms around his neck "u stole my heart..now u have to take care of it" (idk lol) I whispered and he kissed me.