We Didn't Try

Giving a statement (explicit)

March 21, Gabe reported me for sexual assault. I was confused for so many different reasons. I told him I'm sorry that's how he felt and that I'd never intentionally make him feel uncomfortable. I'd never sexually assault anyone, I've been sexually assaulted so I know how it feels, I wouldn't pass it on to someone else. Especially not Gabe, I hate him now but I was fond of him then. I had to write a statement, so did he. I don't know what he wrote but he was free to write whatever and so was I. I wrote what happened without bias because if I did it, I wanted to be punished because that's sick and cruel. I didn't form any opinions about myself until they finished evaluating everything. What everything was, was his statement and mine:

"Me and Gabe had been friends since last year, but became closer as time progressed and he had typically been more hands on (hand holding, hugs) with his friends (me and others, particularly Tracey), however, we developed a romantic relationship and started dating in early December. The relationship went well until mid-February when he came to terms with him being aromantic and we broke up. It took some time to get on the same page in terms if our dynamic going forward as I cared for him a lot. No physical/sexual activity had occurred at this point. We kissed on February 14th, nothing more. This was met with further complication thereafter. The weekend of February 18th, I decided to distance myself from him because of how complicated the situation was. However, on Monday February 21st, during lunch period, I was sitting with Avery and after we had finished eating I walked out of the cafeteria past his general direction and he called me to go closer to him. He said, "You look so hot today." and I said "Fuck me then." He told everyone at the table that he would be back and left with me towards the school hall. On our way there, we walked past Giovani who called out, "Hi Sonia" and I corrected him Gabe no longer uses that name. We entered the hall and placed our bags on the chairs at the entrance. I followed Gabe into the bathroom and he entered a stall and pulled the seat down and sat on the toilet while I stood. He said, "Get on your knees then." So I got on my knees. He then said, "Let's play a game." I asked "What game?" To which he responded, "The game is called 'let's see how hard I can make you cum in 10 minutes' " I agreed and we kissed, then he pulled me closer and I shifted his hand towards my waist. He moved his hand from there to the front of my waist, "Can I?" I nodded. He put his hand in my pants and touched between my legs. He hooked his thumb to my underwear, "Can I take it off?" I nodded. He fingered me. He asked me to stand and he stood as well while he was fully clothed. He took my pants off and continued fingering me and kissing me. He said "I'm going to go down on you now," as he got on his knees and gave me head. He pulled the lower half of my shirt up and kissed the exposed skin. He got up and sucked/bit my neck. He said, "10 minutes is over, I have to go now." I looked at him and he said, "Unless you want me to add a few minutes extra?" I nodded. He growled in my ear, "You like that?"
"Yeah." He fingered me. He kissed me and said, "Did I do a good job?" I nodded. He said, "Tell me how good of a job I did." I said "I think I finished."
"Okay," he said "the game is over I have to go now. Maybe we could play again some time." He kissed me and I said "Yeah." Sometime during that we were close and he looked at his watch, I asked him if he had a class and he shook his head, said no and kissed me. I moaned but he said "Shh, in my ear." and I went quiet. When he was on his way out I asked for a hug and he hugged me and as he was on his way out I held his hand and his fingers were wet so I licked them, "I taste good." He said, "You do. I'll leave you to fix yourself up." He left and I fixed my hair and pulled up my pants. During the next period, Xavier asked me if it was us and told me he was just trying to wash his hands. I tried to tell Avery what had happened but she said that Gabe had already told her, "He told me. I'm so happy for you guys." Gabe showed up to the next period with no signs of discomfort and was isolated a few weeks after due to close contact with someone who tested positive for covid-19. He was released two weeks ago and in a conversation with Aliyah he brought up what had happened, "The only person I've ever sexually appealed to was this guy right here." He pointed at me and did not express any discomfort. In the past weeks, Gabe has been normal around me until yesterday. We had been close, however on Sunday night, he was not replying his messages so I phoned him to check if he was okay and he didn't reply, texting back only at 8pm, "You good?" after which he did not respond to any of my messages. Ashley posted a screenshot of Gabe's story which is when I realised he had blocked me from his story. The story read, "Friendly reminder: if a person's enthusiastic consent changes and you disregard it, fuck you!" I blocked him because I had invested too much into him for him to continuously treat me poorly. After English class on Monday 21 March, he pulled me behind and he said, "Do you remember when we were in the hall?" I said no because I was processing and once I finished I said,
"Oh, yeah?"
"Do you remember how long I said I wanted to stay?"
"10 minutes"
"How long did we stay for?"
"I don't know like 15"
"No, we were there for 25 minutes. Do you remember what I said to you?"
"What?"
"I said I had to go and I didn't go. Whether you like it or not, that's sexual assault by coercion."
I apologised to him and explained my point of view. He didn't speak. He just said, "I appreciate your apology." And walked away"

A few days after that, the deputy head called me in to tell me that I had been suspended for a week for having sex on campus and that Gabe had been suspended as well, however, after reviewing both statements, they found that I did not sexually assault Gabe and that it was a false claim. I wish everyone could have believed that.