Reality In a Nutshell

A day in my life

I woke up to Selena Gomez singing into my ear.

Left my earpiece in again.

I grab my phone and check what I last did.

Read. I read an Ao3 fanfic.

I head for the bathroom. Luckily I don't have to walk far.

I'm grateful I have no full body mirror in my room.

The half one already did wonders to my self-conscious, thank you very much.

I brush my teeth and head back to bed, not to sleep though.

I never go back to sleep. I pick up my phone and dive back into my fake reality.

Maladaptive daydreaming, so tik tok tells me. A mental condition where someone daydreams excessively, most times for hours on end.

The negative of this condition is that people use it to adapt to or cope with a problem. More or less an escape from reality.

But I don't have that, why would I? My life is just fine.

I read on for the next hour.

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With how much money you pay for a private school you'd think they'd make uniforms worth it.

They don't.

I spend half an hour trying to please myself when looking into the mirror.

I rearrange my glasses.

Tuck in my shirt.

Tuck out.

I decide to put on the school jacket.

Hidden. Perfect.

I can't hide my face though. I'm not allowed make-up at school or even in my own house. Sigh.

Face masks choke the hell out of me, I'm never putting those back on.

I look myself over once again and let out a small smile.

Acceptable, good.

I grab my bag and head out to the car.

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I hate walking to the assembly.

Stares, looks, judgement. I truly want to vomit.

I smile at my classmates and say Hi.

That's who I am. The ' Hi ' person, the ' Welcome mat '.

I decided to wear a veil today, most of my friends do so I gave it a try.

"Why the veil? "

"Is your hairstyle ugly? "

"Why did you cover your head? "

Just say I look good please, my answers to these questions are pathetic and pitiful.

"I wanted to" I say.

They leave me alone.

Good.

The rest of my classmates walk to the assembly line, God I hate being early.

They all look good in the uniform, I look like a mermaid, and not Ariel mermaid, more Ursula.

But she's a squid.

Guess I'm not even a mermaid then.

The Assembly soon ends. We all head in.

I try not to hit anyone or take up to much space in the already crowded halls.