The Jock, The Nerd and The Geek

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For years, she wondered why she never felt anything for a boy, but kissing Alex, it was suddenly so clear that she had been searching in the wrong place and it terrified her to the core.

Unlike Alex, she wasn't brave. And she didn't have the courage to pretend like everything was fine. Everything was definitely not fine. She couldn't be gay, anything but that. Bisexual maybe? Because Pansexual seemed too far away for her.

So she asked her best friend for help, this help being an experiment.

"You want us to have a secret relationship, while you go out with boys to see if you're really gay?" Alex asked, hands folded.

To anyone, it would have sounded silly, but she never made anything sound bad. She always acted so cool with everything. It was one thing Alia loved about her. "It's just... I can't— I can't just accept it. I don't know what to do, and there's— no one I trust—"

"Alright,"

Alia stared at her, eyes wide. "Really,"

Alex nodded. "I'd be your... Lab rat. If it means kissing you. Do we also get to do other things? Make out? Boob touching? Head? Sci—"

Alia quickly clamped a hand on her friend's mouth. "Ahhh, don't be too forward. It's unbecoming of a female."

Alex took her hand off her mouth and placed on her face, saying softly, "So is asking if I can kiss you too forward?"

It was. It was too forward, but she felt her head nodding before her mouth could say no and felt Alex's lips crash on hers.

For weeks, Alia was in heaven. Alex worshipped her, loved her in a way that being in a relationship with a boy seemed... Pointless, especially since she couldn't even feel anything for them in the first place but she never told Alex that, pretending constantly she was always enjoying her dates though her friend never argued.

In secret, they fucked like rabbits, made love like they couldn't bear being without each other and cared for each other like it was what they were meant to do with their lives.

Until the incident.

Alex had suddenly cut herself off from all of them, though she still came over to Alia's place every night, sneaking through her window and spending time with her. No matter how many times she asked why she was suddenly away from them, Alex refused to tell her, always saying that she would be fine.

And then one day, for a week, she didn't come to school and didn't come over to Alia's place.

She had cried, every night, and worried constantly. She knew Alex's house but Alex didn't like her going there and she didn't return her texts.

Then one day, the rumours began.

Alex was mentally ill.

Her parents were divorced.

Her Mother was sick in the head.

Her Father was sicker.

And Alex... Returned after the rumour started. She was thinner, colder, but when she saw Alia, she always brightened up. She always looked happy. And Alia felt glad that she could help her, for once.

Until one day, Alex walked to her during cheer practice, dragged her to the bathroom and said, "I can't do this anymore,"

There was one thing that Alia knew she couldn't do and as she blinked, her eyes were rapidly trying to blink away tears that were threatening to fall as she said, "W-What?"

"I can't keep avoiding you during the day," Alex said, "I need you constantly. Especially now. I can't — It's hard alone. No one is talking to me. And it's not that I want them to but I just... I just need a friend right now,"