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A hand found its way to Arthit's cheek when a pair of tears rolled down from his eyes.
"Promise me P'... You will try to move on..."
Kongpob sobbed as he said. Arthit nodded. He can only do that. He was too heartbroken that he was feeling everything around him was ruining, like he want himself to be buried under where he is standing right now. The place of all their memories. The memories from where they started and now.... Their end too...
Kongpob hugged him and said. "Don't cry P'... It's not your fault. It's mine.. But you know there is no way other out than this.."
Yes Arthit know, there is no way out other than this. He know being a heir of their well known company, Kongpob would be the centre of attraction to their colleagues or business partners. And being in a relationship with a man will affect his business and ofcourse his family too. So there is no way out for Kongpob than end whatever he had with Arthit. Arthit knows it's for his own good too... But he can't ease the feeling of something tearing him from inside. It may be his heart, or his love, or his own dream of a future with his boyfriend.... Their future.. their life they both promised together....
Yesterday they were both happy, together... celebrating the love confession of Arthit in front of Ocean Electrics and re-creating the lost time when they were both apart, by cuddling and whispering a lots and lots of 'love yous' and 'miss yous'. Then why now... Why?? He had man up and came clean before everyone... It's because he couldn't bare lose Kongpob. But now... despite all his efforts him fears come true. Bad... this is bad...... he couldn't bear the pain... He couldn't bare the lose..
The thoughts made him cry hard. He sobbed, he weeped, he cried his hearts out.
Kongpob hugged him tight and said in a pleading voice. "Please P', don't cry, please...... If there is any way other than this, you know I won't do this. But now..... I can't help P'. I don't want to let you go, but tell me what can I do other than this ... My parents .... you know, if I won't do this, I don't know what they will do... I am sorry P'.. I am sorry... Forgive me please... Forgive me..."
Arthit hold the back of his boyfriend and hugged him even more tighter. He let his tears flow and soak the latter's shirt.
They didn't fell out of love.. they didn't cheat on each others. They didn't wanna lose each other.. Oh God!!.. Then why this. Why they need to be apart... They have to have each other. They need each other. To breathe and live....
Arthit didn't let a word out from his mouth. He didn't want Kongpob to know how pathetic he is.... how broken he is...
After a couple of seconds Kongpob pulled away and took a step back. Regret and sorrow filling up the younger's face....
"I am sorry to say this, but now.... now... I don't have the right to hold you in my arms.." he paused for a second and went on "You don't have it either.." And Arthit can see Kong in holding back his tears...
Kongpob turned away and walked only to get stopped by a hand holding his wrist. He turned back and smiled bitterly.
Arthit was crying so is Kongpob, but Kong didn't let his tears flow down like Arthit who is crying hard.
Kongpob tried to get out of the hands which prevents him from going, he get out of the hold using his strength, but Arthit didn't let him go. He again grabbed the other's wrist and pleaded through his eyes. Like the more Kongpob wanted to go, the more Arthit is holding him tight. Not letting the other go....
