His sunshine

Chapter 9

"Well continue doing what you are doing ill sit here and look pretty" he chuckled hearing me

"You do that" he said and that's exactly what I did

I sat there beside him while he finished some of his math work, he looks so handsome and nerdy when he is focusing.

"I have English, ill see you later" I said and he nodded

"Don't run"

"I won't" I said and kissed his cheek

I walked to my class and the next few hours were boring until we got to the chemistry lab which is always fun since Manik is my lap partner.

Alia, who im assuming is one of manik's friend was sitting beside him, as if on que, he lifted his head meeting my eyes.

I walked over to him and alia gave me a weird look but I just smiled at her.

"How was English" he asked

'Boring, Shakespeare is kicking my ass"

"Ya calculus was shit as well" he said and alia looked shocked

"Is she your sister" she asked and Manik coughed a little

"No she isn't, im an only child"

"Hi alia"

"Hi" she said

"Alia this is Nandini, Nandini this is alia" Manik said and I smiled

"Bye Manik" she said kissing his cheek and I was taken back

"Bye" he mummbled

she walked away and i sat beside Manik opening my notebooks for today's experiment, I didn't wanna look hurt because I was and I didn't know why. He isn't my boyfriend, he is just my friend I guess. I shouldn't be offended.

"You okay" he asked

"Yuppers" I said and he nodded

The whole lab was blah I was just following the instructions and everything while Manik was focused as well. I felt like I hadn't known him, he felt cold again.

Once the lab was done we were walking to his car, when I stopped him holding his hand

"Is everything okay" I asked

"Ya why"

"Umm you seem distant"

"What do you mean" he asked

"Never mind" I said

"What"

"Nothing, umm the bio project okay so I have ideas ill text them to you okay"

"Ya, sounds good come sit ill drop you"

"No thanks"

"Nandini"

"Im good Manik, I just have someplace I gotta be"

"Where" he asked

"Just somewhere, ill text you later" I said walking away from him

I walked back into college for a bit to grab a couple books I had been wanting then I headed to the graveyard. I missed my parents extra lot today because I was lost, I needed a lot of answers and I sure as hell wasn't gonna get them from myself

I sat down beside their grave and put the flowers I got for them in the middle. I put my bag down and criss cross my legs

"I miss you guys. I have been liking this a lot. Im glad I came back here but upset it wasn't with you two. I know you are watching me from above but I seriously can't do this without you guys. Mumma I need your advice, I feel like im losing myself ma. I feel lost like I don't know what to do. I ummm I thought I liked Manik, I know I like him but he plays this hot and cold game and as much as I love those hot games, the cold ones are brutal. I don't know if im getting myself into a hole or if this is something that will last long" I sad caressing both their graves

'Open this letter when you are confused about love' I remembered my mother's words before she passed away

"Shitt, sorry language I know. I remember you telling me about the letter. Thank you ma, thank you papa. I miss you both a lot, I hope you are watching your little girl grow up. I have to get home now but I will come back" I said smiling

I kissed their graves and got home. I was making some noodles when I thought about Manik. I grabbed my phone and texted him

'Are you home' I asked

'Ya, why' he replied right away

'Just wondering'

'Don't tell me you are gonna go all girlfreind on me, because honestly we aren't dating' he replied and I felt my heart stung a little

I put my phone down and grabbed a piece of watermelon I had put in the fridge a couple days ago after cutting it up. It was cold making me feel nice. My phone rang and I saw it was Manik so I didn't pick it up but It rang again

"Hello" I answered

"Why didn't you reply" he asked

"To what"

"To what I said"

"Well I got your point so I didn't"

"Nandini you are pissing me off"

"Im not trying to, I just"

"Just what huh, I told you I like you that doesn't mean ki tum merai sar api chad dar ghumogi. You aren't my girlfreind and nor do I want you to be so quit acting like one" he blurt out

"I understand, I will send you the project I have done so far and beyond that I will keep my interaction with you at a minimum"

"Fucks sake nandini" he yelled and I cut the call becasue I had enough

I was not gonna let my liking get in the way of my self respect. I care for him, I really do but I wasn't gonna be this temporary thing in his life that he comes to for comfort and leaves when he is okay.