Aphrodisia | 18+ (Written In Filipino) ✔️

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   "This is your sister, Ramona. And the man she's with is her husband, Giles Sazón," mahinahong pahayag ng doktor ngunit hindi ko pinalagpas ang pag-iingat niyang tingin sa'kin na tila ba isa akong bagay na dapat mapagkaingatan. 

   Nilabas ng babae ang phone niya at nakitang nahuli ko siya sa ginawang iyon. "I will text your boyfriend, Uno, to let him know of the news of you waking up," she said as she sniffed and tried to smile at me. 

   I knew by then there was something wrong. I knew it with the way they communicated to the doctor with their eyes. 

   "You woke up after three days of recovering, Bruna. But your body is still in its weakest state because of the accident that happened. You are yet to be strong again. Your legs are quite affected by the collision but it is of great relief that you can still move them even if it seems like it's new. You had a slight concussion. There are little cuts on your skin that can be easily mended in days’ time, but now your father will be here shortly. In the meantime we will have to advice—"

   "Can I please go outside?" walang pag-aalinlangan kong putol.

   Nagkatinginan muna silang lahat bago ako pinayagan ngunit kasama rin ang isang lalakeng nurse at inakay ako sa elevator hanggang sa hawak ko na ang barandilla ng gardens.

   Why. 

   Why don't I remember anything. 

   Bakit walang pumapasok sa isipan ko ni isa?

   Binalikan ko ang hitsura ng babae na halatang hindi gusto ang mawala ako sa paningin niya kanina. Ramona, my sister. I only had to remember that part. Everything else, none. 

   My hands itched with nerves which I had to flex again if I didn't want it freezing. 

   "Does it give me a few days?" 

   Sumulyap ang nurse sa'kin na hindi sigurado kung narinig niya akong nagsalita. 

   "My memories."

   Ilang segundo siyang hindi sumagot bago tumikhim ng propesyonal. "I suppose, Miss." 

   I saw patients everywhere, grief sweeping through every corner. Kung dumalaw man ako sa chapel sa isang palapag, matatakot lang ako sa mga makikitang umiiyak dahil pakiramdam ko ay pakikiramay rin iyon sa parte ng sarili kong nawala. 

   It's like my heart was stolen away, I did not know who. And my mind not present, I did not know where to find the place it was stuck at. Leaving me as an empty shell. 

   What happened to me in that accident?

   "Can you go first and see if I can walk on my own and take the elevator?" pakiusap ko sa nurse na hinahawakan ang IV ko para sa'kin. "It wouldn't take a while for me to come back."

   Tumuwid siya at seryoso akong tinignan. "No, Miss. Kailangan kitang bantayan hanggang sa pagbalik mo sa iyong silid."

   "I'm not going anywhere. Ipapahanap agad ako ng kapatid ko sa oras na hindi ako bumalik ng sampung minuto. And I am close to incapable, so I don't think I'll run with a purpose that actually needs a stable amount of memory."