When I'm Gone

part 1

??: i'm sorry but i have to go
?: you don't have to you can live with me
??: and what happens if we break up y/n
?: breaking up doesn't mean i'll kick you out
??: but i'll start to move on and you will as well and we both know that's gonna hurt both of us to see
?: i can't lose you after all these years
??: i'll never forgive myself for having to leave but i can't stay y/n my mom and dad are separating and it's best if i go with my mom she's gonna need me
?: but she'll understand if you stayed
??: but i won't understand baby i will never understand why i would choose my girl over the lady who bent backwards just to make sure i had fresh clothes to wear the next day to school you'll always be important to me but i need to leave
?: i would've picked you though
??: that's the problem you don't love yourself enough to step away from me that's why you let me put you through so much shit over the years and i love you for sticking by me but that's not love babe that's settling and maybe if one day i come back you'll be ready but i just can't stay and let you cling onto me because you're scared to branch out
?: i do love myself and i'm not scared to branch out
??: you don't even have friends and i'm not trying to be mean but i'm telling you what you need to hear so when i'm gone you can become the you i was always holding you back from
?: you can stay and i'll work on it with you by my side
??: you're making it harder for yourself and for me we both know i'm not staying i love you more than life but i have to go maybe i'll see you in a few years or if not i hope that we're together in another life and we don't ever have to leave each other

and just like that his hand slowly slipped from mine until the only thing of him he left me with was the moisture from his hand smeared on mine but that was three years ago summer of freshman year right before sophomore year to be exact but now it's senior year and a few things have changed let's start with how he was right i hated myself and it took a year or two for me to get over that in that process i found a best friend who helped me with my random mental breakdowns and i even met a guy now he's not the best boyfriend ever but he does love me at least i think he does but it's senior year and i plan on dominating this year by any means necessary

??: y/n can you get out the damn shower before you make us late

that's gigi my best friend who acts like my mom i guess someone has to fill the empty role huh but like she said i finally got out the shower and unlocked the door as she bust in with her toothbrush in her mouth but she pulled it out and spit in the sink then turned towards me

Gigi: you'd have so much extra time if you stop being a weirdo and narrating your own life and also if you didn't take an hour long shower every morning
Y: there's two bathrooms gigi
Gigi: ok but you know this one is the better one
Y: gigi you have your own house to get ready at
Gigi: i like yours better
Y: then i will take however long i want in my bathroom that's literally connected to my room
Gigi: well install a better bathroom in my room
Y: no
Gigi: why
Y: because you don't live here and that's an unnecessary amount of money to waste
Gigi: it's not you'll pay for it your dad will
Y: get out my bathroom
Gigi: fine hurry up

gigi walked out the bathroom closing the door while i shook my head and walked to the closet picking out an outfit for the first day thankfully my school didn't have a dress code but i still wasn't a girl to show a whole bunch of skin don't get me wrong i loved my body one hundred and one percent but i don't know i always felt out of place showing too much so i just put on a crop top and a pair of tights the tights stopped under my belly button enough to show off my piercing and my shirt stopped right under my boobs enough to show off my lace white bra that i had under it for my hair i just let it air dry then i brushed my teeth while tying up my converse once i finished with everything i walked out the bathroom grabbing my bag with my phone and keys then going into my dads room

Y: i'm about to head out
Dad: alright baby girl drive safe
Y: i will love you
Dad: love you more

i kissed my dads head then walked out his room and out the door where gigi was leaning against my car impatiently i rolled my eyes at her and she flicked me off then got into the car as soon as i unlocked the doors i just shook my head and walked to the drivers side getting in and driving off to school

Y: your attitude in the morning sucks
Gigi: i don't like school and then you take too long making me remember longer that we have school
Y: it's the last year bitch you'll be ok
Gigi: no i won't i don't want to be there
Y: see this is why i'm your only friend
Gigi: ok then why am i your only friend
Y: because i settled
Gigi: ouch you rude bitch

me and gigi both laughed then i turned up the radio as A&B by jhene aiko started playing

y/n^

gigi^

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