the falling star...

who are you tsukasa tenma?

TW: mention of sh, bad thoughts, bad grammer, stuttering?, mention of knifes
[ Wonder Stage 6:47 pm After Practice]
Tsukasa's POV:

Am i really a star for people? I feel like I focus on me more than I do others. But... my whole goal is to be a star. For others, for saki... not me. Tsukasa-kun you have to keep smiling for emu, for nene, for rui for saki. If people see you sad they will make you focus on yourself... and you can't. You can't focus on yourself if you're whole goal is about others... I just don't know why I keep on feeling like falling. Into a black hole with no one near me and to just sit there. Think about what I can do to make others happy. TSUKASA-KUN! That's it! You're not trying enough! You have to make the scripts better, and take more thought. If you need to stay up all night then do that. Because if you do then you're stories will be star worthy and you can become one! I don't need sleep anyways and I can't if I need to prefor-

" Tsukasa-kun? Are you alright?"

Rui... god why did he have to say that then I'll have to focus on me and just me oh god I-

" TSUKASA!"

Nene and Emu looked over at me. I flinched rui saw that because he got quieter.

" i'm sorry tsukasa-kun you just look scared..."

" Me? Scared? Why would a future star as me be afraid of anything?!-"

" Not afraid of anything you say? lets see... roller coasters, weird food, EVERY SINGLE INSECT, spiders and-"

" ALRIGHT NENE I GET IT! Anyways like I said i'm fine I don't get worried over my train of thoughts!"

" But- I- you know what if you say you're fine then you are im sorry for overthinking."

Did I make him sad? Tsukasa you're failing...what are you doing? If you keep this up you'll never be a star... Then it hit me that fight... that one sentence.

"you'll never become a star"

who are you tsukasa temma?

" HEY HOW ABOUT WE WONDERHOYYY OVER TO MY HOUSE!?!?!"

" that sounds fun will there be games?"

" emu-chan that sounds great!"

" PERFECT EMU WONDERHOY!"

"WONDERHOYYY"
"do those two ever stop yelling?"

"I honestly don't know about tsukasa-kun but emu-chan? Definitely not but you're fine you'll have your games to distract you."

[ Emu's House 7:12PM Living room]
Rui's POV:
Tsukasa-kun has been acting off lately. What if he's actually scared? I know he wants to be enthusiastic for others but something's just not right with him this week. During breaks he stays silent. I have to talk to him if something isn't right I need to help him!

Tsukasa's POV:
Nene and Emu look like there having fun playing zelda but Rui looks stressed. I hope he's ok... was it about what I said earlier? I need to write down how to improve on how to be a true star. Somewhere where I will always see it... on my arm! I'll use a knife and carve it into my skin! My costume has long sleeves anyways so no one will see! Rui's standing up and walking over here. I wonder what he wants.