•☾.Pensieri + altro.☽•

☾ - Why? - ☽

I am an idiot, ain't I?

For believing you and all.

You were so convincing, caring about me and complimenting me...

Why'd you stop?

Why?

What have I done wrong?

Please tell me, let me fix that-

I watched you walk away but I guess I'm over that

I still have a crush on you...
But this time it might be even worse since you don't even want to talk to me.
I'd prefer to stay forever as it was this march/april than living a single more day having a crush on you and you hating me.

I'll see the marks under my sleeve and let you see just what you've done to me

It's so weird, I hate you for what you've done but for the rest... I love you
I got a crush on you, and I crushed so hard man...

Let me be the one to hold your hand forever

But at least this time I didn't cry!

Because I was so mad and shocked that my brain simply accepted that message without begin dramatic.

Always fucking miss you

But my heart still hasn't accepted it at all.
And yeah I still wish that you'd come back, at least to say sorry.

Baby you fucked up

Cause I deserve an apology, right?

We were so cute dude... why did that have to end like that?

Remember when you swore to God I was the only person who ever got you?

Every minute, every second I hope you'll unblock me and text me even just a "sorry".

Maybe I'm too emotional, or maybe you never cared at all

I know that won't happen, but hope is the last one dieing, right?
I don't know, my mind is a mess at the moment.

All I wanna do now is wait for you to call me
Baby I'm so sorry

I don't think I'll ever get over you...

And yes, I do daydream about you and I imagine fake scenarios where we casually meet and we get back together.

All I want right now is one last hug.
A slow, soft, comfy hug.
The one you give to people before they die, if you get what I'm saying.

Sorry for whatever I've done to make you mad...

As long as you're happy, I don't care...

Bye, I hope you're doing well even without me.

I love(d) you.

~Leaf ☾