Things I've Never Done ✔

CHAPTER 10

"Y-you're drunk. Let's talk tomorrow--"

"If I'm drunk, I shouldn't be talking to you right now. So, yeah, let's take this relationship seriously..." Dahil sa sobrang hilo, I fell on his chest. He held my back gently before sitting up.

"Yeah.. let's talk tomorrow." Hindi ko maintindihan ang mga sinasabi niya dahil inaantok at nahihilo na talaga ako. "You're drunk.. sleep now and we'll talk about our relationship tomorrow."

Nanlaki ang mga mata ko nang maalala ko ang pinag-usapan namin kagabi. At pinaggagagawa ko kagabi. I even sat on his abdomen for fuck's sake! What the fucking fuck?! I even tried to talk about something even if I was drunk. What the ef....

*knock knock*

"I'm already done taking a bath. I'll be downstairs cooking, come down and eat me... I mean... eat with me." Napatingin ako sa pinto dahil sa pagkatok niya. Narinig ko ang pag-sara ng pinto ng aking kwarto bago pa man ako makapagsalita.

Mabilis kong tinapos ang aking ginagawa bago ako nagbihis at bumaba. Sinilip ko muna siya sa kusina habang nagluluto siya bago dare-daretsong umupo sa dining table.

Should I bring it up?

I asked myself. I'm scared.. I am... What if all those memories that slapped my braincells was just a dream. Maybe, I should try talking about it with him? Or maybe, I shouldn't. Baka kung ano lang mapag-usapan namin at madaan pa ito sa away.

But... as a couple.. we need to communicate.

I cleared my throat before speaking. "About what we talked about last night..." Inilapag niya sa harap ko ang pancakes with syrup and butter.

"I was waiting for you to talk about it. Do you really want to take this seriously?" Napatingin ako sa kaniya dahil doon. He looked so emotionless but he sounded like he's hoping for something. I couldn't think of what I'm going to say. What should I say? Anything he wants, it's fine with me. 

Decide.. he should decide. It'll save the both of us.

"...I-I'll agree with whatever you're going to say." Tanging naisambit ko.

But talking seriously... I want to take this relationship seriously. Hindi lang para sa deal namin ni Matthew, kun'di para sa buhay naming dalawa ni Aaron. I've already decided... I want to spend my years with him. I'll never find somebody like him--

Napatigil ako sa pag-iisip nang magsalita siya.

"Don't just settle for what I want. Your choice matters, too. You have that.." Turo niya sa ulo ko. "Use it. You have a voice, speak for yourself and what you thought. Remember this, if you have something in mind, speak up. Walang maling opinyon, it's just the people's mind which is wrong. So... what do you think? Should we take it seriously? I'll respect your opinion, don't worry---" Hindi ko na siya pinatapos sa pagsasalita at basta na lang nagsalita.