Haters

Chapter 24

I feel tears running down my cheeks.
I felt like shit I just hurted myself and I hurted Mattheo.
Well I think I did at least.
I wanted him, I needed him but we couldn't be together.
Why do families always keep people who love each other away from each other.
It fucking sucks.
I decided to write Sirius this time I walked to my dorm and sat down at my desk grabbing some parchment and a feather.

Dear Sirius,
How are you doing out there?
And how is Buckbeak?
I wanted to ask you some advice cause you give the best.
I'm in love like crazy in love with some boy and he told me he likes me.
But we can't be together I'm sure everyone will blame me.
He is from the dark side...
What do I do?
Love,
Y/n

I gave my owl te letter and told him to bring it to Sirius.
I really needed his advice maybe even more then I needed Mattheo.
Okay that's not true but we're not talking about that.

~the day of the first task~

I was sitting with Hermione waiting till it was Harry's turn.
But Mattheo was first and he actually did it really well.
He was done in like 15 minutes and he followed my advice that's sweet.
And now it was Harry's turn and ofcourse he didn't follow my advice.
The dragon broke his chains and lucky for Harry he had his broom.
"What if he gets hurt?" Hermione says totally panicking.
"He won't don't worry" I say.
And after a few minutes Harry comes back just like I said.

~later~

Harry is really proud of finishing the first task and I'm a bit annoyed.
I mean he is only talking about himself all the time not that he normally doesn't but now its like extremely.
He never asks how I'm doing actually but now I just notice and I didn't first.
"Harry can you please stop talking out yourself not everything is about you okay?" I say a bit mad.
He doesn't answer and just look at me I think he is a bit confused.
"Aren't you gonna answer me?" I ask.
"Why are you acting like this out of nowhere?" He asks.
"Because your always talking about yourself you never ask me something" I say.
"I'm just scared y/n what if I don't do it well the next task" he says.
"This is what I mean Harry, now you are making it about you again." I say.
"I think I will leave until you calmed down" he says while walking away.
Why do I always ruin everything now my brother is mad at me aswel.

~next day~

I wake up and look at Pansy's bed it's empty like usually.
She is dating Draco at the moment I don't know why cause she told me she liked Blaise but sure it's her life.
I hear something and see that my owl came back with at letter.
Thank god Sirius wrote me back.
I take the letter and open it.
It says:

Dear y/n,
I'm happy to hear from you.
I'm good thanks for asking and Buckbeak is good aswel I do think he misses you.
Sorry for what happened but I think you did the right thing.
Someone from the good side and someone from the dark side can't be together.
You will get over it.
See you later y/n
Sirius-

That sucks I think I actually hoped he would say I have to follow my heart.
But he is right ofcourse the good side and the dark side can't be together.
But I just love Mattheo so much.
This I gonna be hard maybe that's why I'm fighting with Harry.
I'm pretty sure it is actually.
And what kind of bullshit is this actually why can't we just be fucking happy.
Because our families don't like each other doesn't mean me and Mattheo don't like each other.
I got snapped out of my thoughts from hearing a knock on the door.
I just open it and see Mattheo standing in front of me.
Great.....
I try to close the door again but he keeps it open.
"Y/n please listen to me okay it won't take long" he says.
"Fine come in" I say while letting him in.
"I know how to open the egg without it making so much sounds you have to put it under water and listen to what it says can you say that to harry?" He asks.
"I don't know anything about that egg but fine I will tell him, but why can't you say it by yourself?" I ask.
"I needed to ask you something else aswel cause I know we can't be together like you said but I still want you to come to the Yule ball with me" he says.
Fucking hell why does he have to ask this he knows we can't right.
Well maybe I should just do it it's only one night right.
That can't be a big deal I guess.
"Fine but only one night" I say.
"That's a deal" he says smiling.
His smile is so beautiful...
Okay fuck I can't think that.
"Good now I will see you later" I say opening the door so he would leave.
"See you later y/n" he says while walking out.

~later~

I'm walking though the hallways just minding my own business and then everything went black out of nowhere..