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Chapter 3

Sophie

'What the fuck?!'

I shot up from the bed to see my brother standing in the door way starring at me. I heard a slightly muffled groan and looked beside me to see Benji slowly waking up, shit my brother's gonna kill us.

'Connor it's not what it looks like, okay?' I tried to calm him down, he looked pissed and I didn't know what he'd do.

'You are still hurt so I'll yell at you later but Benjamin' oh shit he never calls Benji his full name, Benji to shot straight up

'If you don't get the fuck away from her I'm gonna break your neck!' He started walking over to Benji's side of the bed so Benji very carefully but quickly jumped over me and ran out the door.

'Get your ass back here!' Connor chased after him yelling death threats. I couldn't help but laugh, they're just such idiots and they always make me smile even when they don't mean to.

'Miss Bennett?' My doctor walked in holding a chart

'Yes?' I hope everything was okay, I wanted to get back home as soon as possible.

'We're going to do another check up in a couple hours and if everything is all good you'll be able to go home. I would also like to schedule an appointment for 2 weeks from now just to ensure everything is still okay'

'Yeah of course, that sounds great. Thank you' I gave a slight smile as my doctor walked out, leaving me alone.

Thank God everyone's gone, I have to pee so bad right now. I carefully got out of bed and slowly made my way over to the bathroom. Once I'd finished my business I went to wash my hands and I looked at myself in the mirror above the sink.

'Shit I look half dead!' Didn't mean to say that outloud, whoops. I splashed some water on my face but it didn't do anything. I just kept starring at myself, the girls words echoing in my head again.

*TW*

'Kill yourself... kill yourself... kill yourself' over and over again as I looked from my face down to my body. I'm so ugly and I never realised how fat I am.

I started squeezing my arms and then my stomach then down to my thighs. Pushing and pinching my fat, how have I not noticed this before, I look terrible. How can Benji bare to even be seen with me?

I got so mad that out of rage I punched the mirror while letting out a frustrated scream. I completely shattered it, pieces flew everywhere. As I pulled my arm away to inspect my now shredded knuckles I saw blood dripping down my arm, it wasn't coming from my hand. I turned my arm over and saw a horizontal cut going across the inside of my forearm.

I just starred at it for a solid 2 minutes and without thinking I grabbed a piece if the mirror and lined it up with my skin, just under the previous cut. I pressed down until it pierced the skin and slowly slid it across my flesh. Red pooled out of my arm onto the floor and at first I was scared but I did it again and again and I just felt calm. I had about 6 cuts on my arm now and was about to do another when I heard something drop behind me.

'Sophie? Holy shit! What happened?!' Benji ran up to me and stood behind me, my back was to him but he could see the smashed mirror and the blood that had dripped onto the floor. There was no way out of this so I slowly turned around and just looked at the ground.

'Oh my god' Benji muttered

He went to grab my arm but I pulled away from him before he could even touch me. I took a couple steps back until I hit the sink. How the fuck do I get out of this?!

'Sophie, what did you do?' Benji looked so concerned but he kept his voice calm, obviously making sure I stayed calm.

'I- I don't know' I really didn't know. What the fuck did I just do? And why did I find it so peaceful? Benji started slowly walking towards me.

'May I?' He held his hand out towards my arm and I extended my hand out so he could see it better. His face dropped as he really saw the damage I did.

'I've got to go get the doctor' he turned to leave but I grabbed his wrist.

'No, please you can't. They'll try keep me here. I'm sorry, I won't do it again. I promise. Please don't say anything' I pleaded with him, I didn't want to stay here any longer.

'You're kidding right? You don't actually expect me to keep this a secret' I grabbed the hand towel and rapped it around my arm.

'You don't have to keep it a secret but just don't tell the doctor or the nurses, please Benji, I won't do it ever again' I wanted that to be the truth but honestly I don't know if I won't do it again.

'For fuck sake fine! But I'm telling Connor' shit he's gonna kill me.

'Tell him after we leave though, I don't want anyone overhearing you' He just nodded, he looked so mad but so worried at the same time. He pulled me towards him and rapped his arms around me, squeezing me in a tight hug. I rapped my good arm around him and pressed my face into his chest.

'Let's see what we can do about your arm though, okay?' He looked down at me with glassy eyes and I agreed.

He left the bathroom and came back after 5 minutes pulling medical stuff out of his pockets.

'It's not stealing... technically' I couldn't help but giggle at him. He smiled once he heard my laugh, I blushed lightly.

'May I?' He moved his hand towards my arm.

'Oh yeah of course' I placed my arm in his hand and he slowly unrapped the towel making sure any bleeding had stopped.

'I have to clean it with alcohol wipes and it's gonna hurt like a bitch. Squeeze my arm but don't make a sound okay?' I grabbed his arm with my free hand and closed my eyes tight. I felt a stinging pain shoot through my arm and I nearly screamed but I slapped my hand over my mouth before any sound came out.

'It's okay, just breathe. I'm almost done' He sped up, trying to help the pain a bit, he looked like he felt terrible. I just nodded, I couldn't form words while in this much pain.

'Fuck...' I exhaled as he rapped a bandage around my wound. I saw a slight blush creep across his face, did I made him blush? He stood up from his kneeled position in front of me, his stomach was in line with my face so I quickly looked up at him. Our eyes met and now it was me who was blushing, he chuckled lowly and looked away.

I mumbled a soft 'thank you' but I was so tired that I leaned forward and rested my head on his stomach, I could feel his abs through his shirt and it was surprisingly comfortable. He muttered something to himself and then I felt his hand on the back of my head, stroking my hair softly. It was comforting so I smiled against him.

'It's alright Darling, you're okay now. Just sleep'

I was half asleep when I felt him pick me up bridal style and carry me over to the bed, I snuggled into his warmth while he held me. He placed me down onto the bed and pulled the blankets over me then he turned to leave but I grabbed his hand and pulled it back towards me.

'Please don't leave me Benji' I looked up at him and his eyes softened as he moved closer to me.

'I won't leave you, I'll never leave you' He moved me over slightly and got under the blankets, I rested my head on his chest and threw my leg over his, he rapped his arms around me and placed a soft kiss on my forehead.

I was nearly asleep when I heard him whisper

'I'll protect you for the rest of my life' then I drifted off to sleep

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