Can a man enter a second time into his mother's womb and be born?
I don't think so Nicodemus
But that doesn't mean it cannot happen
That one is born and born anew
The first time falsely, the second true.
I thought that when I left my old lies and started again
Things were going to be harder
And they were
But that meant that I was sure
And nothing else would get it my way;
At first it was a death
Missing those things that mattered
But finding out they only flattered
And didn't mean it
Stung.
It was hard to come out and say it
With so much fear holding me back
But I am happy now.
I don't know what I was doing then
Ruining my relationships and hiding
The greatest secret of my life
I feared that they would hate me
Would send me away
And we would lose touch
But not anymore
I built a castle of sand
Washed away in the hurricanes of fear
It was mine; a construct of fear and doubt
Keeping me from life.
I hoped, by building a web of lies
To catch the life I once had and keep it dear
But if something must be kept by lies
Is it worth keeping in fear?
That was the life I had before;
Ghastly, isn't it
I was crushed to the proverbial floor
And kept by only myself to blame
But I'm not like that anymore
I told them what I had been hiding
And now we are happier than
We ever were.
I broke from the web of lies
like a rainbow butterfly
escapes from a trap
And flies.
It's hard now
But I never expected it to easy
The strings of the old world tie me still
When I feel like I'm not enough
But I tell myself I'm ready to
Start the next step and go
And I feel lighter.
It odd how one who is
in the process of finding themself
Can feel lighter and heavier at the same time
It is like the hatching of an egg
Or coming out of a dark closet
The egg is confined, but warm and safe
And the hatching is unbearable work and toil
But the world is better than the egg
Like the house is better than the closet.
And I feel better now.
For one can be born and born anew
The first time falsely, the second true.
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Attic flower
الشعرA flower found in the attic is a treasure bringing back good memories of great times. This anthology is a collection of all kinds of poetry, like the contents of a good old attic.