Dear Diary, My husband is a cheater

Diary entry #4

Dear Diary,
He asked about the shirt and I lied to him. I could see he obviously didn't believe me so he went back to cooking. While we were eating he came out something that shocked me. He asked if I were up for something fun later on which of course was the best defining the fact I've been a piece of shit towards him. After that happened he just lied down to take a rest. He asked me why I cheating on him and I told he the truth, I didn't know why I did what I did. His next question shocked me. He asked if he was the reason and of course I pulled him into a hug telling him that he was not the cause of my doings. Pulling the little bit of mind I had I told him that I would end all this cheating madness which I could tell put him in a angry state. He quickly got off me and told me that he didn't believe me anymore because of how many times I've told him that. I've really fucked up haven't I?

Thanks for listening, Mark Lee