Their Chasing Souls

Chapter 46

Ayoko makipagtalo dahil ayaw ko rin masira ang gabi ko kaya mabilis akong tumayo at naupo nalang sa sofa na medyo malayo sa kama niya.

"Aish. Tigas ng ulo." Aniya habang napapailing.

Ano ba gusto nito? Sa sahig talaga? Sumosobra na siya ha.

"Eh saan ba ako pwede? Sabihin mo nalang para hindi sayo nakakahiya. Sa sahig ba? O heto–"

"Sit here." He said with authority and slightly pointed out the space beside him.

No way. He really meant beside him? Nasisiraan na ba siya ng ulo?

"Sa kama mo?" Tanong ko kaya pinagtaasan naman niya ako ng kilay.

Isn't he aware that I'm a lady and he's a man?

Well, hindi naman bago sa amin 'yon simula noong mga bata kami. We used to watched movies and play in his room. We're basically like siblings since our parents are best of friends. Minsan ay ay natutulog pa kami nang magkatabi noong mga bata pa kami.

But now? We're young adults already. Doesn't he feel awkward or atleast kabahan sa mga pinagsasabi niya?

Somehow I feel kinda sad with the thought na maybe he doesn't see me as a woman. Masyado siyang kumportable sa kung anong meron kami.

I sat down beside him o his bed and made him feel na I'm super comfortable around him. As if his presence doesn't affect me. "So may bagyo nga." I said while still watching the news. Hindi naman siya umimik.

Hindi ko na yata napansin kung ilang oras na ako sa kwarto niya dahil he decided na we watch a movie nalang so I agreed naman dahil nawala na rin ang antok ko. Nakalimutan ko na ngang uminom ng tubig na dapat gagawin ko sa kusina.

"Gusto mo maspoil?" Tanong ko sa kanya. I already watched kasi the movie we're watching at ayaw na ayaw niyang ini-ispoil siya. "Huy, magreact ka naman –" nilingon ko siya nang walang makuhang tugon mula sa kanya.

Parang nakuryente ang buong katawan ko nang biglang bumagsak ang ulo niya sa balikat ko. I froze and I think my heart stopped for a moment. Gusto ko siyang gisingin but it would be too inconsiderste of me. Alam kong pagod siya kaya I don't really wann wake him up.

With all honesty, a part of me wanted to stay how we are right now. I missed him so much. I missed this guy so much and I would do anything just to be with him.

But a part of me also wanted to escape. I wanted to escape from the reality that he only sees me as a comrade, a friend, a sibling. I wanted to escape the fact that he doesn't love me.

But somehow, I feel the urge to be selfish. Gusto kong angkinin siya, ang oras niya at ang atensiyon niya kahit saglit lang. And I wouldn't exchange those for anything else in the wrold.

I wanted to caress his hair, touch his lashes and red kissable lips while he's lying on my shoulders. I wanted to feel that somehow, he sees me as a woman. Kahit ngayon lang. Kahit na he's unconcious. I wanted to think that I am not just someone he's comfortable with.

Minutes passed and I just finished watching the movie pero mas naenjoy ko yata ang ang pagkakahimbing ng tulog ni Aries sa balikat ko.

I was quite sleepy pero napagpasyahan kong antayin nalang siyang magising. Maybe he'll wake up anytime soon. I just have to wait.

I tried to open my eyes as flashes of sunlight touched my face. Pinakiramdaman ko ang sarili ko while looking at the window when I finally realized I wasn't in my room.

A man's arm is wrapped around my shoulders and I was hugging him in return. Damn! What are you doing Sophia Amari?!

"Mmmmm.." I heard Aries moaned kaya napalunok ako at tatayo na sana nang biglang bumukas ang pintuan nang pagkalakas dahilan para magising rin ang katabi ko. "Sht." he shouted at the man who just entered the room.