Loving Courtney

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Waking up, courtney Immediately sat up. With Garrett still asleep, Courtney stood up and walked out of the room. 'garrett can not sleep in the main room. I need to change the sheets, pillow cases and cover for the blanket'. Entering the room, Courtney disposed of the dirty cloth and found a pair of cotton underwear, leggings and changed her bed shirt for a bra and a comfortable flowing shirt. Exiting the closet, Courtney Immediately removed the pillow cases, blanket cover and sheet making sure she could remake it the way Garrett likes it made. Placing everything in the basket, Courtney walked down stairs. Even though it hurt, Courtney doesnt like anyone to be displeased and pushed forward. Finding the laundry, Courtney separated the sheets and covers from the clothes. Putting them in the washing machine, she added the washing powder and stain remover before turning it on. 'i have read about mysophobia and obsessive compulsive disorder. They can't completely go but they can be managed' looking in the linen cupboard, Courtney found a fresh set of sheets, pillow cases and a blanket cover to match. Walking back upstairs, Courtney held in her pain. Entering the bedroom, Courtney looked at the empty bed. 'not a mark on it' placing the first sheet on the bed Courtney tucked it in tight making sure there wasnt a wrinkle in the sheet. 'if there's a wrinkle in the sheet, he will freak out' doing the same with the top sheet, Courtney made sure it was folded exactly how Garrett had done it. "Courtney, what are you doing?" Courtney stood up straight. "This is your main bed. The mattress and sheets are clean. You need to be able to sleep in your own bed" Garrett was stunned. 'courtney has taken her time to make sure my needs are met. The sheets have been placed on the bed exactly how I do them and not a crease in the sheets' "you will do damage to yourself. I cant have you hurting yourself. I had done enough" Courtney looked between Garrett and the bed "I can finish the bed for you Garrett. You have only just woke up.." "no I can't allow this. Please rest" "I will feel useless doing nothing for you" Garrett looked at Courtney, keeping eye contact with her 'she is willing to continue to be in pain to help me after what I had done to her?' "would you like to help Garrett?" "I can do the blanket" "okay" Courtney gently picked up the pillow cases and moved to the side of the bed. Putting all the pillow cases on, Courtney placed them on the bed. 'theres a mark on that pillow case' Courtney Immediately picked up the pillow and removed the pillow case again. "Courtney what are you doing?" "There's a mark on the pillow case. You won't want to sleep in the bed. I will.." "stop" Courtney Immediately stopped. "I can go get a new one. I appreciate you doing this but the less you move, the better it will be for you" "would you like me to.." "rest" Garrett walked out leaving Courtney just staring at the bed. 'courtney is not worrying about herself. I felt her get out of bed. I know she has not ate and immediately went to our room to do the bed so I can sleep in there. How can she be so understanding of my struggles?. I need to let her know that she needs to care for herself aswell'. Garrett entered the laundry to see and hear the washing machine going. 'even a load of washing?' grabbing a clean pillow case, Garrett placed the dirty one in the basket and walked back up stairs.
"This one should have no marks. I will finish with this blanket cover" "thank you" as Courtney put the new cover on, Garrett placed the cover on the bed and made sure there were no creases. "Are you happy with the bed Garrett?" "Yes. We need to go eat" "okay" exiting the room, Courtney slowly walked down the stairs. Noticing the struggle in courtneys movements, Garrett immediately picked her up bridal style "Garrett.." "you are hurting yourself walking down the stairs. I can carry you" Courtney kept her eyes away from Garretts "thank you". Getting to the bottom of the stairs, Garrett put courtney down and walked beside her to the kitchen. "Do you like coffee?" "I do. I can.." "I will make them. How do you have it?" "White with one sugar, thank you" "what is your usual breakfast?" "A piece of toast" "a piece of toast?" "Yes" Garrett took a deep breath as he shook his head "that is not healthy nor is it enough. Fruits, eggs, something full of protein and nutrition. Do you like omelette?" "I have never had an omelette" "tomato, mushroom, spring onion, cheese, egg, salt and pepper?" "Yes I like all of those foods" "what foods don't you like?" "A lot" "what foods?" "Anchovies, olives, tofu, liver, kidneys, sushi, black pudding, blue cheese, brussel sprouts, Lima and baked beans, spam. Seafood but fish and calamari are an exception" Garrett looked at Courtney stunned "you know all of these foods off the top of your head?" "Yes" "you always cooked at your last home?" "Yes. Breakfast lunch and dinner" "if I am home, I will cook. Do you drink alcohol?" "No" "have you tried it?" "No" "you weren't allowed?" "No. You drink?" "Yes" courtney showed a slight nod "can I help?" "No I want you to rest. I also want you to eat breakfast before worrying about anything in the house. You did that for me when it could've waited. You health is number one. My needs come second" "you are not pleased?" Garrett looked at Courtney "why did you ask me that?" "I would like to know you are pleased" Garrett turned his eyes back to the cups "Courtney I am not your father. I'm not unpleased with what you have done but you need to remember that your health is number one. I want you to make sure you are caring for yourself before anyone else" 'this is not how I was brought up' "what was in your thoughts?" "This was not how I was brought up" Garrett gently pushed the cup towards Courtney "thank you" "how we are brought up is not who we are. We need to break those rules you have lived by. Those people were selfish. They expected you to do everything for them leaving yourself behind. That is not okay" "it's all I know" "I can see that for myself. Please go sit, I will bring your food out" "but what about yourself?" Garrett looked directly at Courtney "we are to look out for each other. While I am home, I will do that for you" Courtney didn't know what to say. Holding eye contact with Garrett until he turned his eyes, courtney then walked to the dining table and sat down. 'this is all very strange to me. I am not used to having someone look out for me' slowly drinking her coffee, Courtney looked around the dining room. 'everything is simple and yet soft. It's not masculine and yet not feminine either. There was a pool outside. Oh the washing' as Courtney moved to stand up, Garrett spoke "rest Courtney" "the washing.." "can wait until you have ate. We spoke about this before" "okay". 'courtney is not used to having someone do something for her but I will do that. A wife is to be treated fairly, with care, with gentleness and with love but I can't give her that. I can provide for her and share responsibilities' "Garrett I do need some items" "what are they?" "Personal" "tell me what they are" "pads and tampons" Garrett looked directly at Courtney "they are very much needed. We will go the pharmacy after breakfast" "thank you" placing the omelettes on the plates, Courtney noticed the frustration on Garrett's face and immediately stood up and walked his way. 'the food is his problem. It's not center and the plate is dirty' "GET OUT" Courtney held her tongue but moved to stand in front of Garrett "I SAID GET OUT" Garrett grabbed Courtney's arm and threw her to the ground in frustration. Realizing what he had done, Garrett put his head down as Courtney stood up 'its his struggle' "Garrett.." "I'm sorry, I should never have done that" Courtney looked at the plates. Centering the food without touching it by hand and wiping the plates down, Courtney opened the drawer so Garrett could grab his cutlery as Garrett looked at the food "I said I would do it" "you said we need to help each other" "I didn't help you, I hurt you" "I didn't touch your food or your plate. I will place this in the dishwasher" Garrett looked at Courtney "I hurt you" "I will be fine" "but you are not. I keep hurting you" Courtney could see he was frustrated "I'm okay Garrett. You said we should eat"