Torn for choice

One

"Before i go, i'll be in the stands watching you one last time"

"I don't want to say goodbye, Marcos"
I cried and my little brother lifted his hands and wiped the tears from my face.

"Either do i, but it's not a bad thing. I'll be happy again"
I just frowned at him.

"You want me to be happy, no?"

"Of course i do, Marcos. But i don't want to be alone"

"You won't be alone, Tana. You have Alexia, Ona, Mapi, Leila. You have so many people, and you'll still have me. I'll be with you all the time"

"Alexia told me to tell you that she loves you and that she will see you soon"

"Before i go, make sure i see her. I love her so much, and i know you do too. When it happens, make sure she's here"
He's so strong.

"She won't want to see it"
I whispered.

"Ask her. You know what? Give me my phone"
I reached over and gave my little brother his phone and watched as he messaged Alexia- Well tried to.

"Can you?"
He asked after he failed to text.

"Sure"
I nodded, taking his phone.

"Okay. Say: Hey, Ale. I love and miss you so much. When it happens- when i leave, will you be here to hold my sister?"

I typed in the message and sent it, and moments later she responded.

"What did she say?"
My brother asked impatiently.

"She said: Of course, i will be there holding your sister. And i need to say goodbye to my favourite little guy. I love you, Marcos"

"You won't be alone. Alexia will be there too"

"How long?"
I asked my brother and he immediately looked away from me, making my heart drop.

"Marcos! How long?"
He shook his head, still not looking at me.

"Ask the nurse"

"I'm asking you. How long?"

"Before you go back to Barcelona"
He responded.

"Where is the nurse?"
I asked him.

"Right here"
Someone said, and when i turned around i saw his nurse.

"Hi"
I said giving her a small smile.

"Good morning, Aitana. What is it you wanted to ask me?"

"I-"
I began to speak but Marcos cut me off.

"She wants to know how long i have. I want you to tell her"
The nurse sighed and looked at me.

"Anytime. But we think he has around four/five months left"
As she said this more tears fell from my eyes.

"That's not long"
I cried out.

"No, Tana. That's a long time. I need to go. I would go tomorrow if i could, but i can't leave you. I'll wait until you get comfortable with your new teammates. I'm in pain, Tana. I need to be pain free"

I didn't say anything to my little brother, i just sat beside him and cried with my head on his chest.

******
After almost the whole day spent at the hospital, i drove home. As soon as i got home i called Alexia and she picked up immediately.

Hermana❤️

"You okay?"
She asked softly as she noticed my puffy & red eyes.

"No, but i can't do anything"
I smiled a sad smile.